I woke up Aug. 19th to a nightmare that will never end. I woke up to the sound of my husband and best friend struggling to breathe. I believe he wasnt there anymore. He was taken to the ER where they attempted for an hour and half to do CPR. They did finally get him stable enough to take him to the CCU, where he coded multiple times. He passed away at 1:35pm. Since then has been awful. The situation its left me in sucks and I am angry and frustrated. I feel NO ONE understands. I've been to "young widow" websites, but they all have kids and are older and feel they can't understand what I go through. Really I've given up.