My Soul Mate Left Me
I don't understand what happened. We had our whole lives ahead of us...we were going to start having kids towards the end of the year when I finish nursing school. He wanted to go back to school once I became a nurse. I thought we were happy. I thought he loved and adored me. He had big jobs he was starting at the end of the week and was going to make good money. This doesn't make any sense. My life ended July 24, 2012 and now I have to figure out how to start a brand new one. I don't know how I am going to push through. This is so hard and painful I just don't know what to do. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. Life is never going to be the same without him. I feel like there is a dark hole where my heart used to be. I am so angry and hurt I just don't know how to handle it. People say the worst things..."you are so young, smart, and beautiful; you will find another husband"... I DONT WANT ANOTHER HUSBAND!!! I miss him beyond words can describe. People say this will get easier...when? I don't think anyone truly can grasp the amount of intense pain and suffering other than those who have experienced such a loss. I need help and I don't know where to turn. I love him so much it hurts and everything reminds me of him. There are places I cannot dare go to and face....restaraunts, going on the boat, going to that area where his body was found which happens to be a block away from my Dad's place. I can't even go to my dad's place bc my husband's truck is now parked outside. I couldn't even go over there for my dad's birthday dinner. They say this will get easier, but when??? When will I feel even an ounce of peace?