My Angel From Heaven

MY NAME IS CLAUDIA AND I AM 22 YEARS OLD. I LOST MY HUSBAND IN MARCH 2012. HE WAS MY ROCK, MY SOULMATE, MY SHOULDER TO LEAN ON, MY BEST FRIEND. WE MET BACK IN 2006 AND GOT MARRIED IN 2008. I GUESS WE WERE MEANT TO BE BECAUSE EVEN IN BREAK UPS WE MANAGED TO GET BACK TOGETHER AND EVENTUALLY MARRIED. WE HAD A FEW FERTILITY PROBLEMS BUT WE STUCK THROUGH IT TOGETHER. ON AUGUST 2011 WE WELCOMED A BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY AND OUR LOVE GREW STRONGER. WE WERE AS HAPPY AS CAN BE UNTIL THAT DAY CAME AROUND IN MARCH 2012. I REMEMBER LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY... WE SPEND THE DAY TOGETHER RUNNING A FEW ERRANDS AND GRABBED A BITE TO EAT. MY BROTHER HAD JUST MOVED INTO A NEW PLACE SO HE WAS HELPING HIM SETUP SOME STUFF. HE DROPPED ME OFF AT THE HOUSE AROUND 6PM DUE TO COLD WEATHER FOR OUR SON AND HEADED OUT TO HIS MOMS. DUE TO WINDY CONDITIONS AND US LIVING IN A MOBILE HOME I GRABBED SOME STUFF ABD HEADED TO MY MOMS WITH THE BABY. HE WAS SUPPOSSED TO COME OVER BUT NEVER DID. I LAST SPOKE TO HIM AROUND 8PM. AFTER THAT I TRIED CALLING AND CALLING BUT NO ANSWER AND BEING AS I THOUGHT HE WAS AT HIS MOMS I CALLED HER BUT TO MY SURPRISE HE WAS NOT THERE. HIS BROTHER WENT TO LOOK FOR HIM AND RAN INTO SOME POLICE AND AMBULANCE AND THIS HOUSE WHERE OUR CAR HAPPENED TO BE PARKED OUTSIDE. I WAS CALLED AND TOLD SOMETHING WAS WRONG BUT MY MOM DIDNT LET ME GO TO THIS SCENE. INSTEAD I CALLED FOR SOMEONE TO COME WATCH THE BABY AND LEFT TO THE SHERRIFFS DEPT. WHEN I ARRIVED MY BROTHER TOLD ME THAT MY HUSBAND HAD BEEN SHOT AND KILLED. I FELT LIKE A HOLE OPENED IN THE GROUND AND SUCKED ME RIGHT IN. HOW COULD THIS BE? WHY NOW THAT EVERYTHING WAS SO GOOD IN OUR LIFES? WAT WAS I TO DO WITH MY 6 MONTH OLD WAITING AT HOME FOR ME? ITS JUST SO HARD TO LOOK AT MY BABYS FACE WHOS IS NOW 1YR 4 MONTHS OLD BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE HIS DADDY. BUT AT THE SAME TIME HE IS MY MOTIVATION TO GET UP EVERYDAY AND GO ON. THIS IS JUST A FEELING THAT WILL NOT HEAL BUT GETS STRONGER AND DEEPER IN YOUR HEART AS THE DAYS GO BY. I MISS HIM MORE
EVERYDAY AND JUST WISH CHANGE ALL OF THIS. THIS IS THE HARDEST THING IVE BEEN THROUGH MY ENTIRE LIFE AND I DO NOT WISH THIS FEELING UPON NO ONE. NOT EVEN MY WORST ENEMY. NOTHING CAN MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. EVEN WHEN I AM IN A ROOM FULL OF PPL I FEEL SO LONELY WITHOUT HIM. THE ONE THING I KNW HE IS PROUD OF FROM UP IN HEAVEN IS THAT I AM RAISING OUR SON JUST LIKE HE WOULD HAVE LIKED TO AND THAT I FOUGHT FOR JUSTICE UPON HIS DEATH. I DID ALL THAT WAS IN MY HANDS AND HIS MURDERER WAS JUST SENTENCED TO 40 YRS IN PRISON. THAT DOES NOT TAKE ANY DAMAGE AWAY BUT HIS MURDER WAS NOT LEFT UNSEEN FOR. UP TIL THIS DAY I DONT KNW THE REASON FOR HIS HOMICIDE AND THAT MAKES IT THAT MUCH WORSE BUT I WILL STRIVE FOR NOTHING BUT THE BEST FOR ME AND MY SON AND I WILL DEFEND HIM THROUGH THUCK AND TEETH EVEN IF I HAVE TO SCRATCH AND BITE!
crojas1990 crojas1990
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2013

I MEANT DEFEND MY SON THROUGH THICK AND THIN!