Written on January 27th, 2013
Day 26...Still can't believe any of this is real. Feeling so lost and sometimes emotionless. It's as if everyone else's lives are going on normally, and here I sit motionless. I just want to crawl up into a ball and stay there. I can't even imagine how to live my life without my husband anymore. I also have a 10 year old son who is trying to cope with all of this so it is hard for me to have any time to grieve myself. He doesn't like me to be alone, or look sad. He says it makes him sad, but some times I just want to be alone to clear my head. Not sure how to handle all of this.