I Just Can'T Shake Him

2 weeks ago I lost my husband. He was 39 years old and have a brief battle with cancer. he was my world. We did everything together. Now I am alone. and I feel so alone..
IndigoCarrie IndigoCarrie
2 Responses Feb 1, 2013

I am so sorry, Carrie. I also lost my husband to a Brain aneurysm last year, he was 37. I have five young kids including twin 4 year olds! This is almost too hard to bear - I sooo get that and I prayed to never be in these shoes. Here is the thing, my Dad died when he was 44 and I saw my Mom collapse into depression and alcoholism in the years following his death. I vowed to be strong and to be there for my kids and so far, I am doing that. What people fail to see with grief is that after the huge shock is grasped - you get to choose how you feel from day to day - do you choose the darkness of loss or the lightness of life? While there are still many nights that I collapse into tears and miss my husband, I am getting better and better about pulling myself together and seeing the light. Carrie - I am wishing you light and life!


I also lost my husband within a two week period. Brain aneurysm. He was my best friend, my soul mate. I know you are going through a very hard time... It was hard for me the first 5 years, sorry to say. Not to cry when I heard his name, or think about him on all holidays and anniversaries. Now it has been 13 years.. and although a lot easier to swallow, I still get choked up when I think about him . It will still be painful, but a different kind of pain. If you ever need to talk to someone that has gone through the same thing, please feel free to contact me.