Hello everyone, I'm hoping to share my story and grief with young widows. I lost my husband on 1/19/09 to suicide. At first I was angry and confused and it later turned into guilt to later sadness. I feel like I'm going crazy because ALL i think about is HIM and how much I miss him. We were having marrital problems but NEVER did I think he would do this to our babies. THey were his life, our life. WHy would he do this to them, knowing what he went through when his brother commited suicide. Our son is the same age as HE was when his brother took his own life. My love of 15 years decided to take his own life the same way his brother did by jumping in front of an Amtrak train. Why would he put his mother through this again??? WHY WHY WHY??? The moments play in my head over and over. I have started therapy along with my children ages 10, 6 and 1.
Anyone else loose a husband to suicide? I'm sure I'll have more to say but i didn't want to write a book.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.