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I Am a Young Widow

I Am A 27 Year Old Widow :(

By: ashleypope
Written on January 20th, 2010

My husband justin passed away 10 months ago..we have an 8 year old son together who just adored him. we were together since we were 15,,i never imagined in my worst nightmare this would happen. he was my whole life and now he is gone, i still want to wake up and hope it was all a nightmare. he was such an awesome person ,, my best friend and the love of my life. ill never be happy like i was with him. i hate thinking i have to live a long life still, i just live to take care of my son now the best i can and pray for this to go away and it doesnt i still wake up to him not here everyday not knowing why god would do this to me ..our life was soo perfect ..we had everythig..a happy marriage an awesome healthy son and nice house good job..nothing matters now that he is gone

By: ashleypope
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • baybeydoll
    baybeydoll

    Go ahead and feel out your feelings, you have made it this far by putting one foot infront of the other and your gonna keep doing it greive his loss feel the pain cry daily or monthly or however you feel, just keep those feet mmoving inbetween the tears and try to add some smiles. I dont think the pain goes away i dont think there will ever be a new normal but your doing it and just for that u deserve a big hug from someone who doesnt know your exact situation, you had your own relationship with your loved one and your own experiences with previous loss so i dont know how u feel, but i have a pretty good idea how ****** it is we are creeping up on 3 months since my then 15 month old were left to go it alone after a tragic truck accident while he was fishing with some family and we weer at my best friends sons 1st birthday. i still get up and put on my clothes and wash my hair and brush my teath, we eate we bathe we sleep - kinda..... i smile genuinly for and at my son he really can crack the pain but i feel so abandoned and alone

    Aug 17, 2011
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  • ipshitach
    ipshitach

    How does it feel now? Stupid question I know but have you found absolutely anything in life to distract you even a little. This stuff is so random you know, that a logical person cant even call it unfair. It is patternless and heartless. I speak from experience. Knowing that i still ask, have you found something (apart from your child) to keep the blood flowing?

    Apr 10, 2011
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  • consciousdrum
    consciousdrum

    I died the day the love of my life left this world. I've been told it gets easier but every day it gets worse. I was widowed before married, my son fatherless before born. I struggle every day to keep my head above water. People have begun to avoid me like the black plaque. I am living my worst nightmare. Its gonna be the biggest challenge to fake the holiday cheer.

    Dec 2, 2010
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  • beautituelip
    beautituelip

    god loves him and this is the time he go back to the creator.

    My dad had passed away since i was 11 yrs old and that time my mom was 38 yrs old. She was fulltime house wife , no income , no body at her side to support her mentally. But she did it a good job by raised us ,4 all her kids.

    Be good mom and be strong. Keep move on and what is matter now is your son. Don't let him feel lonely and feel not confident because he doesn't have what other people have.

    It doest tough growing up without a father. But it will make you even stronger and more independent. Pray for you both and wish you have a good live.

    Jan 20, 2010
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