I'm A Masochist, Ask Me Anything

First things first, I'm not a 'submissive' in terms of BDSM. I don't see myself as part of that community, because 'safe, sane, consensual' doesn't work for me. I'm too much dependent on actual, physical pain.

Ask me anything, I will answer truthfully.
lifeasaghost lifeasaghost
18-21, M
5 Responses Feb 29, 2012

I think it is my man's right to punish me and beat me for real.

My husband punished my face a few times when we were away. I hope he does it again. Are you ok with having your face heavily bruised?

have you ever been bitten or bit someone hard enough for blood to be drawn?

Yes, and I enjoyed it very much.

I'm glad to hear you see the difference between BDSM and Sadomasochism. As a masochist, what do you like best? I find when I feel most sadistic I tend to lean towards biting and blood.

That's a good question, actually. I quite like burns for the sensation, but they're a bit of a bugger when it comes to scarring. Biting creates an awesome feeling of intimacy, and the marks are nice.

I've only been bitten a few times, it really does feel intimate if done right. I remember a few years back I would experiment with burning all the time, luckily I never created any scars.

I've got a few scars from burning on my wrists and collarbones. I'm quite pale, so they tend to be rather noticeable against my skin tone.

Have you ever had to be seen by emergency services? Do you expect that that will happen at some point?<br />
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Was there a learning process or experience, or have you always found pain to be...lots of fun?<br />
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Since I'm first-aid trained...<br />
I'm thinking you might want to keep "advanced first aid" as a by-the-bed book title...along with a first aid kit containing: antiseptic betadine solution, triple antibiotic ointment, sterile gauze, hibiclens, duct tape, 3M Vetbond, blood gel, burn gel, the reusable sort of ace bandage...if you're really into pain maybe some dissolving stitching for suturing as necessary...maybe vaseline and surgical forceps, in case things get stuck where the sun doesn't shine.<br />
( Seriously...o.O' Do a search on "removed from rectums in emergency rooms." )<br />
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Anyway, thanks for answering and enjoy yourself.

I had to see a doctor about some cuts on my arms when I was 16, but that was because my parents saw and mistook it for self-harming behaviour as a symptom of depression. I do however count my past struggle with eating disorders as part of the whole self-defeating/masochistic business, and that got pretty serious at some point. I've never been to the A&amp;E with life-endangering injuries, but I can't eliminate the possibilty of that happening in the future.

Masochism probably isn't something you'll just suddenly notice and live with. It's been quite a process even finding the term and accepting it as part of who I am rather than an illness.

I've been to several first aid courses in the past, but that's not very likely to help if I really get into trouble. Keeping a kit close is probably not a bad idea, although I find it increasingly hard to stick with any sort of 'rational approach' when the mood takes me.
Oh, and I've heard those stories too! 'I swear I fell off the ladder and the broomstick just happened to be there!' I don't really plan to end up that way. ;)

Thanks for the reasonable questions and the advice. It's good to see people can be considerate and polite about touchy subjects as well.