Apologies In Advance

..because I am a little drunk as i write this.

My husband has asked me to avoid verbal of physical conflict with my father-in-law (his father) until we can move out of his house.

I am hoping I can make it.

This evening the father-in-law had a fit over some coffee mugs which I washed and put away in a cabinet.. a seemingly reasonable thing to do..but apparently I was not supposed to "move" them. What a ******* joke. The insanity this man engenders is beyond description, and i will not attempt it here.

My life is so insane. I think about running away. I talk about it when drunk, like tonight.. and hubby was around to hear it. He said, "if you're going to run away, run away to your dad's, and try to tell me beforehand.. just don't run away without money..our relationship will never be the same".. he was very emotional. I feel bad for talking about it now. I am just at that point where nothing much matters and I am ready to leave it all behind.. just hitchhike with a ******* backpack and not own anything else. I shouldn't have talked about it. Sometimes I feel like anything is better than living under the heel of this insane, narcissistic ******* (father-in-law)... I really, really, love my husband and don't want to be away from him but I can't be a doormat forever and I can't tolerate watching my husband act like a fool and a doormat for weeks on end, placating his father.. anyway.. gonna stop writing now.. thanks for reading.
Ivanova Ivanova
31-35, F
5 Responses Jul 21, 2010

if you guys are ever in aussie ... my daughters and i are going to make a movie about broken life .. up 4 it<br />
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<3 Thanks, ChevyGirl. :) I hope you had a great vacation. <br />
Hard to believe I only wrote that a few days ago. Seems like months. <br />
I'm starting to think that what I really want is a home. A nice, stable home with my husband and no one else, until we have children! The depressing part is that we have no idea when we can make this a reality.

Sorry that I wasn't here. =/ Anyway, I'm back from vacation... back to "reality" and I know that feeling of needing to get away from it all. From everyone and everything. Something better must be out there, right? Surely this isn't the way it has to be. And yet most people want to run from it all... why is it that no one can just be content with a backpack of only the most important things and an open road? <br />
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*hug*

Thank you, sxdup. :)

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xoxo