What Should I Do?I've been dating this guy, its a long distance relationship. He does not have a job, does not go to school and has gotten his high school equivalence since he is a drop out. I, on the other hand, am about to graduate from a university in a few months. I love this person but he has no ambition in his life and no goals, he is living off his parents and says he will return to school but has not done so.
There is another guy at my school that is always talking to me online, he wants to hang out with me. He has invited me over to parties which I never go to or to watch movies with his house mates in his apartment. I am not sure if he likes me. I think he is very handsome and kind and I think I'm beginning to develop feelings for him.
I feel horrible because I am beginning to have feelings for this other guy and I have been very kind to him in our chats, nothing flirty. I feel like I cheated on my boyfriend.
I think my boyfriend is emotionally abusive to me. I am not sure. He has done many things to hurt me. He has broken many promises, one time he said he wanted to see me but since he doesn't have a job he couldn't buy a plane ticket. He offered to sell his TV that he doesnt use to buy a ticket, but he never did so he had to beg his brother to buy him a ticket. He has been a financial burden on me and his family. While he was here, we were looking at apartments and I made him look for a job, I even made him a pathetic resume to distribute. He got a few applications that he never returned. Every time we fight about something, like his broken promises and failure to do something with his life, he always ends up blaming me for HIM hurting me. He tells me that he is looking for a job but no one has called him and that I SHOULD not be mad at him cause I've seen how hard hes tried. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to break up with him but I can't.
He is currently here and he was supposed to leave today but he didn't. He says he cares about me but when I am sitting there sobbing all he can think of is himself. His response to me crying is that I need to think of his feelings when I am clearly drowning in my own tears. I get so frustrated I even want to drive a knife inside of me and sometimes I begin banging my head on the wall.
I don't know what to do anymore? I want to break up but every time I've tried, he has come back and told me everything was going to change, it changes for a while and then he goes back. He can't even sacrifice a damn TV to see me. I've sacrificed more than 2,000 dollars while he was here. I don't know how to break up with him and I am not sure if this is an emotionally abusive relationship? I need help.