No Where To Go.I never got along with my dad. He is the yelling type. Not all the time, but I would never know what would set him off. He never abused me physically, but mentally, another story. It seems I upset him alot. Most of my life he'd get mad at me, even if I didn't do anything. I have done some stuff that I am ashamed of and deserved him getting upset at me. He seems unforgiving about them. I know I did dumb stuff, but I also did good stuff. It just seems he sweats the small stuff. I mean I was always afraid to do something for fear he will get upset. I know I can't be doing everything wrong. I could be making something to eat and would get mad.for the smallest things. for nothing. It seems he can't take no for an answer. I always felt if I said no to someone, it was a bad thing. Even in picking friends. I always picked friends who treated me like my father does. I make a mistake and all hell breaks loose and I am not forgiven. They make a mistake and they expect me not to get angry. I feel like it is ok to treat me like crap. The way I was always treated by my father is boiling over in friendship and jobs. I am always getting yelled at, and getting blamed for things I did not do. Not being forgiven for things I messed up on and sorry for. I am scared to do something I feel is right for myself for fear he will criticize me.
jpearl66 46-50, F 0 Jan 6, 2011