No Longer Abused

It has been  a year since I severed my tie to the Narcissist.  I am so much better.  I can't believe how much that man drained the spirit out of me.
But he didn't get it all.  Like a wilted plant,  tended to, I have revived.  We each must find our own way, with whatever help we can find.  My Psychologist and Psychiatrist have helped me with counseling and meds, but I did it. 
A year later, I am functioning, thriving and looking forward.  At 71, I have repaired my physical self to an extant I find hard to believe.  I have been in
an intensive wellness program for about 5 months, during which time I have lost near 20 lbs, discontinued my diabetes meds, lowered my
blood pressure meds and am remarkably fit.  I can climb a flight of stairs 2 at a time!!!  I feel 10 years younger.  I became a group leader for a
caregivers support group for Alzheimers.
I still remain shy about new relationships with men.  I always wear my makeup in case I find Mr. Right.
You can do it too.  But you must cut that relationship off, cold turkey.  Have no contact, if possible.  Do not go back.  They do not change.
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2 Responses May 12, 2012

I' am very Happy for you.You inspire me! Thanks for your story!

For this life, which is like a drop of wateron a lotus leaf,
We have not enjoyed, but enjoyments have enjoyed us.
We did not penance, but penances burnt us up.
Time did not fly, yet we are gone.We become decrepit with age, but not so Desire.
Infirmity assails us, the skin wrinkles,The hair whitens, the body becomes crooked,
Old age comes on.
Desire alone grows younger every day.

Life is like a wave upon the waters,
Youth only remains a few days.Wealth is like a fancy of the mind,It immediately vanishes.
Enjoyment is like a flash of lightning
amongst dark clouds.
Our most beloved one is only for a moment.Knowing this, O man, give your heart unto Brahman To cross this ocean of life.

~ Vairagya Shatakam