Break Me, Dont Fake MeI am not your "averege" 14 year old African American (Im actually multi/mixed). I enjoy school, reading and playing sports. To most people I am an "OREO" black on the outside and white on the inside (lame I know). I talk very proper and I work my butt in school getting A's and B's in all my classes and I actually plan on going to college (full scholarship) . I get teased and picked on by my own classmates and my upper-class mates.
Now that Im starting high school Im sure its going to be way worst, plus I have the bra size of watermellons. So the boys will follow me all day and the girls will think im fat because because my boobs are so big. Which is funny Im no where near fat, I have good legs and a good waist and Im pretty. So why am I always picked on? Ive never been nothing but nice to people, even the people who bully me.
When will I come out of the shadows and people notice me more than a punching bag? I took every kind of defence lession when I was little and Im scared that Id really hurt someone from fight back or kicked out of school. I dont think Ill be able to take it during high school, in fact I know I wont.
Do I change, to make the people and the pain go away? Please help me keep my sanity. What do you think I should do?
ButterflyGirl14 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 Jun 29, 2012