A Long Time Coming!
For the longest time, for much of my life, I thought I could only achieve true happiness with the possession of others. I felt that I needed a soulmate and friends, to find happiness! But... I don't know when, how, or why it happened, but one day I found true happiness within myself. :-)
For the first time EVER in my entire life, I feel human. I no longer feel like an animal, an unwanted, an piece of "crap"... to be polite. What I couldn't see was, that I hated myself so very much, an image that people painted of me and that I had accepted... I felt worthless and useless. On my bad days, sometimes I feel like that, but then I am more able to shake myself free from those negative LIES that my emotions try to tell me. =p
I now realize that friendships and romantic relationships are there to ENHANCE my life and my happiness. They shouldn't be the core root of it. The old cliche saying is true, "happiness comes from within!". So now, I no longer weep for what I don't have, but I am grateful and happy for what I do have! I take great joy in my true-self, the relationships I do have, and the inner joy that I've discovered. :-)
So, my happiness starts with me, the rest just compliments it. ;-)