I'm Almost To My Breaking Point

One of my stories is about thinking of having an affair. At the time, I wrote I wouldn't ever. Now, I'm not so sure.

I crave...yes, Crave, a man's touch. Any touch. I'm beginning to not care if it's a one nighter with someone I'll never see again, someone who doesn't give a **** about me. I just need to be held, like newborns need to be held or they'll die. Because I *am* dying. I've passed through my thirtys into my forties, and still in this sexless farce of a marriage...any more "passing" of years and I'll pass right away like this.
A wasted life.
msdamgoode msdamgoode
41-45, F
2 Responses May 22, 2012

I'll hold you because I want to care for you, not because it has to go to far, definiteltely not only once. I'm Don. write to me outfrontt@yahoo.com

To be bound to someone that neither craves touch or intimacy, is a slow and painful death. Especially, when your needs and desires are for touch, intimacy and desire. To share passion, touch, to feel my lover's body against mine, is almost a unseprable part of who and what I am. To experience the heart, there has to be the physical with me. Otherwise, my frustration and desires lead to guilt and disappointment, sadness and even a feeling of loss of self worth. I have been in such a relationship before. And because of old fashioned values, children and a feeling of duty and responsibilty, stayed way beyond the experation date. And hence led a life of ten years plus of misery. There exists someone for everyone. A heart that reciprocates your needs and responds to them. Do not cheat yourself of the love and physicallity of what may lie just beyond the boundries of what you know. Trust me.. dealing with the daily sadness and feeelings are not worth it. Be true to yourself, your needs and feelings and happiness will return.sadness a