If Only You Loved Me Too.I'm sick of running. I'm so tired of this casual sex, these furtive moments we spend together when we know no one will find out what we're up to. All I want is to be able to kiss you, feel your arms around me, and the warmth of your body next to mine. I want to be able to fall asleep next to you, in your arms, just for once. God, I love you. I wish you knew it, but I'm too scared to tell you, because I'm terrified that you don't feel the same way. Hell, I KNOW you don't feel the same way, so I can never let you know. But all I want is just one night with you, not just a rushed quickie in the afternoon or evening when you can get away with it, without me hurrying to the door, shoes in hand, to leave before we're found out.
This is the intimacy I've longed for, for so long. You're the most beautiful man I've ever met. I love you so much, and all I want is just one night when I can pretend that you feel the same way, safe in your arms, before our time together ends (which it inevitably will, someday). I just want to feel like you love you. I want to wake up next to you and smile at you and see those beautiful blue eyes gazing at me with your gorgeous half-smile that makes me want to kiss those lips until the end of time. All I want is just one night with you.