I started taking 5mg a day, bought from a friend... Eventually taking about 100mg a day with Xanax and drank everyday... I forgot to eat and forgot who I was.. I forgot days and weeks from my life. Eventually spending hundreds a month.. Couldn't go on with a day without it, but tried quitting and couldnt. Years passed and found out I was pregnant and it was easy to stop for somebody else, but I couldnt quit for me. I still think about it everyday.