Adderall Ruined My LifeBegan taking addys in 2007. Faked symptoms of ADHD in order to get a sc
That was 7 years ago. Now I am 29 and have nothing. I cannot take care of myself. I live in my mothers house. I do not work, so I have no income. My mom has to buy my groceries and provide my most basic needs. I failed/dropped out of school. I lost my DL and my car. Nobody knows the depths of my addiction. My mom has no idea Ive been taking adderall. She knows I am depressed and pays for therapy and doctors visits. My life is a lie and secretive. She thinks I am just suffering with depression. The depression kicks in when I run out of my sc
Currently i am prescribed 75 20mgs a month. I take it all in about a weeks time. For the next 3 weeks with out my addys I am an empty, lifeless shell. I cannot stand day to day life. laying in bed and hiding from the world and is all I can do to cope with the agony I feel. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing I will get my addys back in a few weeks where Ill just binge again. During this binge week I sleep maybe a few hours at most and smoke a pack of cigs a day. My muscles and joints get sore, my jaw aches from clenching my teeth. I get blisters on my tongue from constantly scraping it against the edges of my teeth. I am no longer productive and together- mentally or physically.I've noticed thaqt I cannot recall recent events. Its awful but I cant stop.
Enough is enough. I have decided that this months sc
PS. I want you all to know how much reading your stories have helped me to know that I am not alone.
cherrysnthesnow 26-30, F 12 Responses 0 Feb 20, 2012