So Hard To Stop

At night i make promises to myself that i will not take the adderall tomorrow, and i search how to quit for hours. Telling myself i will get healthy and treat my body well.
Then, i wake up ...and it's like this natural desire to just take them. I don't even remember i'd promised myself not to, until after i take it and crash.
Feel ******, not only mentally anymore, but physically as well.

I have a handful of good, logical reasons to quit.

But i have bucket-loads of illogical, ****** up reasons not to.
Searchingsoul9 Searchingsoul9
18-21, F
Dec 7, 2012