i am a 22 yr old mother of a 16 month old beautiful little girl. ive have a husband, my own place & a job that i love. sounds good huh?? everything would be, if i didnt have a problem with adderall. or should i say both me and my husband. things have changed quite a bit over the last few years due to adderall. my life is slowly falling a part right in front of my face & its like i cant stop it. i know what i have to do but its almost like my husband is holding me back. ill be doing ok w/o my pills until he starts bitching about not having any. as soon as he mentions it i am on the phone & making plans knowing we dont have the money. its like i really cant stop myself. i feel like a complete idiot once ive gotten them. i hate this drug but i absolutly love it at the same time. the point is that my marriage is close to being over and b/c i stay up real late i am constantly late to work. not to mention i have a daughter that needs me. i feel like i have let my baby girl down in so many ways. it breaks my heart to look at her when im all jammed up. shes so innocent and precious & deserves nothing but the best. i just dont know what to do anymore. i cant go to rehab cuz ill lose everything i have. i need some advice and guidence on how to stop w/o rehab. i have quit b4 and i know i can do it again. i need to know im not alone. any help would be good.