I'm 21 years old about to graduate college. I wasted the last two years of my life abusing adderall/vyvanse. I started taking it for different reasons...school...appetite suppressant...energy booster, etc. I never actually needed it, just wanted it and getting the prescription was a breeze. I have never regretted something so much in my life. I ended a two year relationship that had potential before I went away to college after graduating high school. I almost ruined another relationship with an amazing guy because of my stupid addiction to this drug. It sucked the personality/life right out of me and made me 'not me'. I stopped giving a **** about relationships and only wanted to focus on myself and my grades and my future. My goofy, loving, upbeat, bubbly and compassionate personality turned into a stone wall. I would do anything to take this back...I think about what my life would have been like if I hadn't been abusing this drug. Thankfully I'm off of it now...but the process to quit was tough for me.

What it all comes down to...prescription drugs are awful and so easy to abuse. I didn't know it at the time, but adderall has affected so many of my major life decisions. It doesn't matter how successful you think you're making yourself when you're on it, it's not healthy..and it's not you. I would love to be able to make a difference in someone's life and help them if they are going through a similar experience. I just can't stress enough how much I wish I had realized this earlier.
lifesajourney2014 lifesajourney2014
22-25, F
5 Responses Sep 2, 2014

How did you quit? I hate the way Adderall makes me feel but I take it anyway. I feel like I can't make it through the day without it. I'm not the same person I used to be. I never laugh. Adderall made me smarter, more social, now I'm numb. I hate, hate, hate it!

Vyvance almost caused me to commit suicide. I burned through 30
Pills in 4 days.

I started heavily abusing adderall September 2012, and these last two years have been the worst for me. I'm not prescribed, which is pricey... But I still take it like candy. What did you do to quit?

I am going through the same exact situation, and I can't stop. It's getting worse by the day

Everyday seems like it's a harder battle with it, but the war is feels like when you don't have it is worse. I know your pain.

Same except I'm 7years in and can't shake the addiction ??