I Want to Quit Before I Lose Everything
I have always been envied for having the best self control. I have been able to smoke cigarettes only when drinking for over 10 years and never became a smoker.
Cocaine is different, at least for me. I started off doing just a little but every time you do it you want more and each time gets more and more expensive and the craving for it become intense.
I have read what people say about becoming an addict, losing friends, jobs and getting into debt. I laughed and said "not me". But it happened. I did lose my job. I have lost many many friends and am heavily in debt. No my life hasn't fallen apart thanks to the love between me and a certain person. But cocaine has become more important to me then almost anything. Even as I write this I want it.
For anyone who reads this and has any advice to help me get off of it or just has something to help me see a light at the end of this dark endless tunnel.......I would love to hear it.
And to anyone who has thought of using cocaine for the first time.......think , really think about it. You can't miss what you don't know.