In This Skin

Hey missmeema, wow you got alot of responses! All I can say is that I'm right there with you! I'm hooked on Methadone and Downers,everyday. I have kept my daughter by the skin of my teeth-she is 18yrs now,so the days of getting away being stoned are long gone! She's on us like a ton of bricks!! Be strong, it's easy to say but people do come off. NA hasn't worked for me, but it could for you! One good thing is that you meet loads of folks in the same boat!! Please don't give up hope, you have beautiful children, that need their mother. No more preaching, it can and will get better. Stay in touch,please!!!! Yours kidakider

wow thats really sad i feel bad for you. all i can say is dont give up, there is still hope. you said that "you dont even care anymore" that this drug has taken over your life probably because you think there is no life without it, but with the right help there is, it will take time and wont be easy but you can get clean and learn to function witthout it. good luck with this and i really hope you get through this alright

Your story is really sad, but you do care...still. if you didnt you would not feel guilty enough to write all you did!! please dont know you have a problem and do nothing aboout it!!! your children need you!!!

as someone who's struggled with being hooked on opiates, i know what at least part of your pain is like. I know this sounds rosy and naive and such at first glance, but this concept has helped me more than anything else:



Believe in yourself. You are powerful. No matter what that voice in your head (the same one that convinces you you can't function without dope) is telling you or making you feel, you are many thousands of times stronger than you could ever imagine, and life could get a hundred times worse and you could still survive it.



I got the most help through SMART Recovery (www.smartrecovery.org). It's an alternative to AA/NA (which I have no issues with, it just doesn't work for me) that teaches you how to start changing your thinking and your behavior, with the eventual goal being not using anymore. Instead of teaching you to admit you are powerless, this program shows you just how powerful you ARE, and that if you WANT to stop using, you CAN. There are face to face meetings all over, but if there isn't one in your area, there are daily text and voice chat meetings, as well as a 24 hour chat room and message boards. It's a close community of recovering people, and they're absolutely fantastic. There ARE other comforts besides drugs, but they take some work and determination to uncover. Please give it a go, I think at the very least you'll see that there's a better way out. Best of luck!

I can understand where you are comming from i have been there. you are doing the right thing reaching out for help keep reaching there is hope out there i promise Ill be parying for you good luck and best wishes.

It sounds like you are in a really depressed state, a really hopeless state, and that is probably caused by the drugs' effect on your brain.

There are tons and tons of free AA and NA meetings where there are are many caring folks who have been where you are and found a way out. Maybe you would like to explore that?



Life is painful without drugs. With drugs, I imagine it is pain + suffering= total misery. I am sorry you are going thru such a difficult thing but you are not alone, and help is available when you are ready.

I hope you can reach out for help and accept it before its too late - for you as a unique and beautiful soul and for the sake of the mother of your children. Peace.