I Am Addicted to Food

I am obsessed with my weight, and as a result I am obsessed with food.

When I was younger I was happy with what I looked like. Until my dad started telling me that I was getting fat and if I didnt start snacking I would end up like my mother ( who is VERY big.) 
At the time of his saying this I was MAYBE 120 lbs. Tiny.

As I have gotten older I have gotten bigger and Im not really sure when my obsession started, but it just has.

Now I cant control what I eat. I try to eat healthy meals and snacks everyday. and everyday I end up just going nuts and binging. No matter what I do.  I have steadly gained weight (very quickly I may add) and am now at 175. I am only 5 ft 4.

I look in the mirror and see a huge girl. The girl my dad told me I was going to become. But I need help! I want to feel pretty again, and I want to have control over what I eat!!!!

I feel so broken after I binge, and I feel ashamed that I have this problem.

If anyone has any advice please let me know what I can do to break this addiction!!!

alwaysn4ever alwaysn4ever
18-21, F
Feb 21, 2009