Its Outrageous

I went grocery shopping today with my mom and she was so impressed with the way I haggled, compared prices,and this that and the other to make sure I was able to buy the most groceries without spending too much. So she drops me off, I go put away the groceries and cook dinner and when I get done, I'm counting what's left of my cash and it hits me: I FORGOT TO BUY SCRATCH TICKETS AT THE GROCERY STORE! So I run over to K-Mart and without thinking twice I pump ten bucks into the machine and buy a five, three, and two dollar ticket. I did this the other day and won forty-three bucks. Same amount spent on the same tickets, it was the easiest forty-three bucks I've ever made. Today, not so lucky. All three tickets were losers. I'm out ten bucks. Which doesn't seem like much but I'm unemployed at the moment so every dollar counts. When I had a job, taking the night's tips and spending them all on scratchers didn't seem like much either. It amuses me how surprised I become when I buy losers. I become flabbergasted like its never happened to me before. To give you an idea of how bad of a problem this has become for me check this; I made a collage out of losing scratch tickets. And I love this ******* collage too death, its like momentarily my most priced possession. So i know they're a rip off, and I'm generally a money smart individual.  But when it comes to those odds- ten bucks can put me out ten bucks or I can gain forty- I'm a sucker.