I Need Male Attention.
I have a personal problem; I always seek male attention... ever since middle school (I am now in college,) I have always seeked a man, I enjoy having a man there to text me and call me and make me feel WANTED. the odd part is, i don't care if a girl tells me she misses me or loves me, i only feel loved and wanted when a man says it... if for some reason i don't have a guy to talk to, i feel worthless and sad because no guy wants me, so i go searching for another one. what i find odd is, i don't want a relationship right now in my life, but i DO want a guy to be there to talk to me and think about me; i don't know why!!! during a relationship, or whenever i find a new guy, i fall TOO quick and i get attached immediately, during the relationship i always put the guys' needs and wants before mine because i feel like 'if i don't, he'll leave me' i allow guys to ignore me, stand me up, not give me attention, etc... and i still stick around as if i'm some pathetic loser. i know that what i do is wrong, but for some reason I CAN'T STOP. my mom told me that it's because i am insecure and because i still haven't learned how to love myself.. i think she's right because all i do is try to look beautiful wherever i go, for OTHER people, not for myself. i don't know how to love myself, i don't know how to put myself first, help.