Again and Again

Have been going to NA since I was 16 years old. Have known that I have had a problem since then. And if anyone were to ask me I am up front with my problem, and will admit I am an addict from the word GO. Unfortunately in my area, all the dealers like to prey on the weak at the meetings in my area. As in, there is more dope in a meeting smoke break, than from your usual dealer. Sad, but true. I had 16 days....but saddly have fallen prey again. Actually allowed my self to be caught up in the **** again. F$(^%!!!!! Hate this cycle. Living it for 17 years and now, still counting.
KarmaKatcher KarmaKatcher
31-35, F
6 Responses Jun 3, 2007

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i hope your still doin well.i know its hell. im still clean 10 mnths but think of it everyday. please dont give up

Thanks largecar

i5 yr addict, clean 7 mnths, its hell, we can talk if u want, good luck!

Thats funny you say that cuz i remember My guy started giving me some lame *** **** that tasted like drano. so i went to this meeting just to find a new dealer. ******* nuts. What i do to stop smoking **** is smoke weed. just get baked off my *** and i can go on for weeks. when the need for **** hits i just get baked.

That is so jacked up about what the dealers do in your area!! I can't believe they prey on people like that; people who are trying to get away from the stuff!! <br />
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You really report that to the people who work there. I'm serious. I'm sure you could do it completely anonymously (even tho it IS already at NA).<br />
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I am very sorry to hear that. I know firsthand how selfish and greedy dealers (of this sh*t) are. I am disgusted to hear that they have stooped that low, but I am not at all surprised either. They don't have the values and morals that most people do/should/need to have. Very sad.<br />
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I wish you the best of luck.