I Don't Know How To Live Without Him.

I am 26 years old. My ex and I started dating in March of 2010, we broke up a little more than a year later. Yes, I know what you're thinking. It was only a year. Well, let me tell you, so many things happened in that one year, it's enough to last a lifetime. My ex is one of those "football playing, testosterone loaded, quick tempered, life-of-the-party" type of guys. From the moment I first saw him, I was hooked. I couldn't get enough of him. He was my drug and I was addicted. I moved in with him 2 weeks after dating. Our relationship was not a good one. My friends called us a "tornado" and a "volcano". It was a bad combination. We fought constantly. I'm talking yelling, and screaming, throwing things, crying, never hitting though. But as soon as we were done arguing, it was back to the "honeymoon" phase. Like nothing had ever happened. He loved me. He protected me. He hurt me, and used me, and I loved every minute of it. Not at the time, but now looking back. I did. I felt so safe with him around, like if anybody ever tried to hurt me, he would protect me. When we broke up (it was my decision, little did I know I'd feel like this), I decided the best way to get him out of my life was to sever all contact with him. Now, we live in the same town, and it's a small town. Well, not too long after we broke up, he met someone else. He moved in with her and her 2 kids. And I was devastated. I still am. I have not spoken to him or seen him since May of 2011. Will I ever move on? Will I ever meet someone who makes me feel like he did????
Allie3030 Allie3030
26-30, F
2 Responses May 23, 2012

I have withdrawals from him, I have no appetite, feel sick and down and generally miserable and when we talk again (not that it happens much since he is an ex) I feel better. I still feel nervous and exited all at once but the pain is quelched. it truly is like a drug and I am wondering if you have recovered from him or what happened...

I too am addicted