I'm not sure if this matters at all, but I am addicted to opiates and have no desire to stop. In fact, I am terrified to stop. I know they are extremely harmful but without them I am miserable.

If I'm not on opiates, all I do is cry and ruin everything I touch. I hate myself so much. I don't deserve natural happiness so I have to survive on artificial calmness. I'd rather be empty than feel the things I feel when there's no Roxicodone in my body.

If you told me that I could never take opiates again, I'd kill myself.
garagedad garagedad
22-25, T
Aug 22, 2014