I Eat Vicodin Like Candy.I went on a seven month narcotics binge. I got clean in March. There hasn't been a day that I haven't thought about my addiction. About wanting just a few vicodin, or morphine, or oxycodone, or any other kind of pill along those lines. I used to eat them like candy. And, I might start up again. The pills (morphine) are sitting less than five feet away. Nine of them. I want them so badly. A friend gave them to me. I don't want to get hooked again. But I miss the warm feeling they gave me. The bliss. The safe feeling, like everything is going to be alright. It's like the warm blanket you had when you were little that protected you from monsters.
I want it. And I don't know if I can stop myself from giving in. It's like that song by the killers. "They say the devil's water, it ain't so sweet, you don't have to drink right now. But you can dip your feet every once in a little while."
Can't I just dip my feet in?
absolutionist 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 Oct 2, 2010