Going On 30, And Still No Luck

I'm almost 29 been married for going on 9 years, and of that 9 years i have been ready for a child for 8.  I was diagnosed with PCOS about 4 years ago.  My obgyn gave me a low dose of fertility drug called clomid in hopes it might would help.  Well, it didn't, in fact i was devistated when he told me that he thinks that i need to go to a fertility clinic.  With that said, he made arrangements for my first appointment, and then informed me that most insurance companys does not pay anything on it and in that case it was gonna cost me $200 just for a consultation.  So, knowing my insurance does NOT pay for any fertility i unfortunately had to decline the appointment.  I now sit around grieving over the whole situation, i find myself being angry at people around me that are pregnant, including my own sister who just gave birth to a beautiful girl in June.  I can't help it, and i definately do NOT wanna feel or be like that.  I feel like i got shafted, I see people on daily basis that doesn't deserve they're child or can not provide for them like i could and yet i am the one that cant have any.  I feel like i am being selfish especially knowing that i am not the only one that has this issue.  
manda1024 manda1024
26-30
1 Response Aug 2, 2010

No u are not the only 1! I am dealing with that same issuse myself