I am 38, with no children, I, more than anything need children. I have been really depressed the last mth or so. I truly don't care if I live or die. I know there is in-vetro and adoption, but we cant afford that. I have no friends and not to much of a family. I feel all alone. I have went threw depression many times in my life, its always been a part of me. But this time I am afraid of it. I am sure if I had a child most of it would go away.