How I Lost My Salvation

   Here's how i lost mine and i think it happens this way for many Christians. You are by nature a grumbeler, you let a root of bitterness rise up in you when God tells you you cant have this or that, and then you take it to the extreme of blasheming the Holy Spirit. And the ols argument that once your saved no one can ****** you out of Gods hand doesnt apply to you getting to the place that you resist his will to yoiur own detrement.

bash47 bash47
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15 Responses May 3, 2009

Listen to me: I'm an 18 year old boy who received Christ this year. I came to this page a while ago under the influence the same lie. It is impossible.. i repeat... IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to lose your salvation. Your feelings mean nothing. Absolutely nothing. I know that sounds harsh but it's true. Don't look for feelings. Your faith hasn't gone anywhere. God is waiting on you to run back to Him. Pray and don't focus on feelings. Focus on him and know that his grace is bigger than your biggest mistake. Once saved, always saved. God bless you.

Remember a lot of Christians will lose their salvation , the parable of the sower (Mat 13:18 - 23) teaches us 75% of Christians will lose their salvation and the parable of the 10 virgins (Mat 25:1-12) teaches 50% will lose their salvation. The question is why? and the answer is revealed in (1) the true gospel of Christ and (2) the 10 commandments.

(1) 99% of written gospels in the world are false: The true gospel of Christ - is the gospel the Apostles preached (Gal 1:8-9) - which is the King James Bible (and the same in any other language) : (or Google string search"KJV Preservation Chart "). If you read and study ONLY the King James Bible - for in it is the true spirit of God and your spirit will be renewed and refreshed and the light of Christ will start to shine in your soul and the glory of God will bring forth fruit in due season and the fear of Lord will be restored in you and your faith will grow and the fear of man will vanish and you shall become strong for only the truth can MAKE you free: [KJV] Joh 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

(2) You must keep the commandments of God. Study your KJV starting at the NT and mark any commands or commandments God gives and keep them and do them. Keep the 10 commandments. Don't worry about those hypocrites who pick on the fact no man cannot commit adultery in the mind - and hence not keeping one means you broken all - ask them this: what is the greatest commandment of all
[KJV]Mat 22:37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
[KJV]Mat 22:38 This is the first and great commandment.
- then ask them why they keep it and not the others, because without this commandment you cannot worship the Lord Jesus Christ. Secondly, did not King David who was under the 10 Commandments - clearly commit adultery and murder - but he never once stopped loving the Lord (keeping the first commandment) and the holy Ghost never departed from him and God knew this and chastened and beat him good and he repented and the Lord forgave him and restored him and he will be in heaven.

Remember your understanding is not God's understanding, your knowledge is not God's knowledge, your wisdom is not God's wisdom and your revelation is not God's revelation - it God who revealth by his grace the truth of the Lord Jesus Christ - our job is to obey him in faith:
[KJV] Mat 16:16 And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.
[KJV] Mat 16:17 And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven.

Those who fall away will NOT know it:
[KJV] Mat 7:22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?
[KJV] Mat 7:23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
But you are clearly AWARE that your heart is not right in the Lord - hence you salavation is still true and you do what I have said and you will be restored for God said:

Hence, you need to read the KJV - read it aloud - so you hear - for faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God. Keep the commandments.
[KJV] Rom 10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
[KJV] Rev 12:17 And the dragon was wroth with the woman, and went to make war with the remnant of her seed, which keep the commandments of God, and have the testimony of Jesus Christ.

The REAL 10 commandments video:

You didn't lose your salvation, the fact you are in despair over your supposed loss is proof that your heart is still tender to God, your under Satans grip. The Spirit of Fear has been attacking you. You can be restored!!! I promise, I have experienced the same thing and I have been delivered. God is now calling me into the Ministry!!

That's good news! YAYYYY

Are you sure you lost your salvation? Couldnt repent or feel no sorrow for your sins? And then came back? I would love to hear your story if you want to tell me.

I read this...and that is similar to what I did...a part of me doesn't know how to choose this your story?

Pretty much so. You have to stay in church, keep asking for prayer for each addiction,each one has become a demonic will have to force yourself to get into a exercise program to raise your metabolism enable to get of the sleep meds(do your part and ask God to do his) he still owns you and will take care of you, just as he did with those who wandered in the. Desert for 40 years, does this make sense?
Peace and rest to you.

I believe I'm His..I have been off the sleep meds for awhile now..thank God..thanks

I have God following me around harassing me. He laughs at me when I am upset. God has put a sickness on me.Nobody in my family believes me. What do I do?

its deffinatly evil spirits, if you still delibrityly sinning then yes.. it could be evil spirits sent by God. I feel your frustration with your family and others not understanding. Do you feel like you have strongholds of sin in your life?

Holding on to bitterness is my problem. How do you deal with being a reprobate everyday? But I really think it is God.

It's not easy by any mean, I also am bitter and angry,I just try and keep an open line with God so the evil spirits don't harass me. That has been very difficult lately, you're dammed if you do and damed if you don't. You just have to fight and be dissaplined to pray daily, honestly repent of sins. Does that make sense?

Yeah, it does. Thanks.

Believe that its not true.

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You Are My Salvation<br />
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When the believer has begun with trembling feet to walk in the way of the Lord, he still asks to be led onward like a little child upheld by its parent's helping hand, and he yearns to receive further instruction in the alphabet of truth.<br />
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Experimental teaching is the burden of this prayer. David knew much, but he felt his ignorance and desired to be still in the Lord's school: four times over in two verses he applies for a scholarship in the college of grace.<br />
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It would be better for many professors if instead of following their own devices and cutting out new paths of thought for themselves, they would inquire for the good old ways of God's own truth and beseech the Holy Ghost to give them sanctified understandings and teachable spirits.<br />
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"For you are the God of my salvation."<br />
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Jehovah is the Author and Perfecter of salvation to His people.<br />
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Reader, is He the God of your salvation?<br />
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Do you find in the Father's election, in the Son's atonement, and in the Spirit's quickening all the grounds of your eternal hopes?<br />
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If so, you may use this as an argument for obtaining further blessings; if the Lord has ordained to save you, surely He will not refuse to instruct you in His ways.<br />
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It is a happy thing when we can address the Lord with the confidence that David displays here; it gives us great power in prayer and comfort in trial.<br />
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"For you I wait all the day long."<br />
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Patience is the fair handmaid and daughter of faith; we cheerfully wait when we are certain that we shall not wait in vain. It is our duty and our privilege to wait upon the Lord in service, in worship, in expectancy, in trust all the days of our life.<br />
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Our faith will be tried faith, and if it is of the true kind, it will bear continued trial without yielding. We shall not grow weary of waiting upon God if we remember how long and how graciously He once waited for us.<br />
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I have a similar story. I received gifts, was enlightened and then willfully walked into sin ignoring The Holy Spirits warnings...I've been seperated from God 4 about 1 1/2 yrs....I've been in a psych wards since, losing my mind. I'm hardened..and I'm still sinning with smoking and overeating, and taking sleep meds..everyone keeps telling me I'm forgiven, Jesus hears me, but I have not seen any fruit in me...I'm lost 2... I went against ministry and went back to old ways...God is serious about these sins....He doesn't put up with the rebellion I've been in..I'm now on disability and bored out of my mind. I'm ashamed to go anywhere because my small town, everyone knows everyone, and the knew my passion and ministry 4 God, and they all know my falling away....I would LOVE 2 b back in His prescence, working and serving. But I don't have the Holy Spirit working in me...I've burnt a lot of bridges 2...<br />
I hope and pray there is an end 2 this soon and I can get back on the narrow path..<br />

Please read my story and try to repent of your sins, if you have stronghold of specific sins confess them to someone you can trust(even if it is in a prayer chat room here) it will be very difficult but it is possible. I am praying for you..

I've actually been doing meds..still smoking and over eat sometimes..but I can't sense The HS convictions as I did b4..there hasn't been proof of true genuine repentance...although I know God is good and with me(around me) He has been very good.. I am blessed with much, but it's fellowship with Him I miss and need..I fear I'm an enemy, because you can't serve two need of grace..mercy and freedoms..still hoping.

Have you been restored?

Demon Entered/Possibly Have Lost My Salvation (my story)<br />
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I grew in the church, loving the Lord Jesus Christ and knowing Him. Around 13 1/2 I stopped attending church, because my grandmother was no longer able to take me. My interest in the Lord fell. In 2006 the Lord began to pull me to Him. In 2007 the Lord began to pull me even closer to Him. By 2008 I was back strong with the Lord - in my love for Him, my desire to know more of Him, and to live the way He desired me to live.<br />
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In 2010 He batized me with His Holy Spirit. I was born December 07, 1982. On December 03, 2010 He gave me my first Spiritual Gift - Interpretation of Word. From this moment til the third week of March 2011, the Lord Jesus Christ blessed me with somewhere between five (5) to six (6) different spiritual gifts (including Prophecy, the power Tongue, Seer, and some other spiritual gifts). In mid May 2011 I went back to doing evil. I defiantly and deliberately lusted after people with my eyes, mind, and heart. I knew I was sinning, enjoyed it, and even did it with a smile on my face. But, I didn't know about Hebrews 6:4-6 and the other verses; I didn't know of the SPIRITUAL DANGER (for someone the Lord has blessed with spiritual gifts) takes on by doing committing such actions ('such actions' meaning not the sin itself, but the way in which the sin was committed ... defiantly and deliberately).<br />
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After a week and half to two weeks of doing this, one day while at home (and I was just as wide awake as I am now/I wasn't sleeping, dreaming, nor daydreaming) I presence entered into my eyes and I felt the Holy Spirit leave me (though since then it has come back to me on like a touch-and-go way). Within twenty minutes I immediatly knew what that presence was. I knew it was a demonic presence. I immediately went into a five (5) day fast and prayer to be delivered from this demon. But, that which happened (during this fast and prayer) I did not expect.<br />
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On the third day of this fast and prayer I felt a portion of this presence (that was in my eyes) 'break off' so to speak and move to my neck. When it entered my body it became multiple. That is the best way I can explain it. The presence multiplied. By the fifth day the entities were just jumping in jumping in jumping in jumping in jumping in. Being tired, I stopped the fast and prayer. Two (2) days after the fast and prayer, the Lord came to me and I heard His voice. (Because He had blessed me with spiritual gifts I knew His voice and was able to recognize it; and, I wasn't sleeping, daydreaming, nor dreaming.)<br />
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His tone was extremely serious and their was a feeling that was beyond anger. He said to me, 'You were told to depart from evil.'. This happened during the day. About three (3) days to a week after this message, I was in my bed about to go to sleep (it was night time) when the Lord came to me and said, 'And these words are true, you will not enter my kingdom.'; the bible verse 'And the works of the flesh are manifested and they are ....'. A few days after, I went online and googled 'demon possession' and came across a particular article on 'how' it happens. What the article had to say basically described my the exact experience - defiantly and deliberately sinned, demon possession comes on, and the Holy Spirit leaves.<br />
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Within a week of reading the article, while sleeping, the Holy Fire (also known as: Fire Of God, Fire Of The Holy Spirit) came upon me and woke me up. I heard the Lord's voice and it said, 'I have come to you in many ways and have told you that you will not inherit My Kingdom.'. About one week after this, while asleep, the presence of the Holy Fire came upon me and woke me up. I heard the Lord's voice and it said, 'Your presence isn't wanted in My Kingdom. You are an abomination.'. Since then, I have received other messages from the Lord (with experiencing the Holy Fire) about me not entering into His Kingdom.<br />
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Though, I have received some positive messages as well - they didn't come with the Holy Fire and most were in the daytime. I prayed to the Lord if He had a message for me then for Him to please send me a messenger in the form of a person, and He did. The person (who didn't know about any of this) had told me, 'God can change things. God will turn things around. Continue staying in reading the Word.'<br />
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Since the demon possession/oppression the entities have become stronger. They are especially active at night. The ones in my body will shake my soul/spirit body and wake me up. The one that is attached to my spirit eyes will shake my soul/spirit mind and wake me up. (When this happens I get up, turn on the light, and go into prayer and praising the Lord through His Word - particularly Psalms 150, 148, 147, and 23. I aslo focus on reading God's Ten Commandments.) I have had to learn about Spiritual Warfare, and the Full Armour Of God and putting it on and keeping it on.<br />
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Out of all my 28 1/2 years on earth, this experience just well ... I don't feel the Holy Spirit like I use to and the Lord doesn't talk to me like He use to.<br />
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And yes, the entities are still in my body and soul as of the writting of this confession (August 8, 2011). <br />
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TO ALL: PLEASE DO NOT PERSIST IN (ANY ONE FORM OF) SIN. Especially if the Lord Jesus Christ has blessed you with spiritual gifts.<br />
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P.S. - Please feel free to comment (and give advice) on my confession.

Oh hon, You can be forgiven, redeemed, restored. Satan is telling you different and that is a lie. HE LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Contact me if u get this message as I would like to talk further.

I am praying for you, stay on course and please pray for me, I think my time is up, I need clear direction as well as courage to die and face God.
Peace to you

Do you remember the prophet Jonah. He was the ultimate backslider. This man was personally handed a direct mission from God himself and what does he do? He takes the nearest ship to Tarshish. God catches up to him and puts the whole boat in danger so he jumps into the water and goes down into the belly of the whale for three days. He finally goes back to do his job and he is like the only prophet who complains that people actually listened to him. I don't think anyone can be more of a grumbeler then Jonah. There are people who would beg to have God work with them in that kind of personal way.

Here's the word on the "unpardonable sin". It is "blaspheming" the Holy Spirit but that's done by refusing to confess a sin--any sin will do. I continue to read stories and hear testimonies of people who suspect they've unwittingly committed the unpardonable sin and they're forever lost. That's nonsense.<br />
It would require your entire attention and the full consent of your will after refection and personal deliberation. No one will commit this sin by accident.

I've been there. He didn't give me what I wanted so I left Him. You're correct, no one can ****** us away from Him but that doesn't mean He won't throw us out if we constantly go against Him.

Purposeful rejection of God. Choosing to take whatever short-term happiness life can afford for now. Not overcoming. Gos is not mocked. His justice is perfect. Only those truly worth of His Son will receive Him. Some of us have accepted his Grace only to trample it under foot. There is a very special message God has for us who are like that,

Blaspheming the Holy Spirit, is unforgivable. As it is written.<br />
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The loss of faith is temporary. When we feel bitterness, pain, a loss of acceptance. We might turn away from God but not intentionally. It is where I was at this year.<br />
I felt that I was abandoned in a way. It was not my actions, but the actions of others and external things.<br />
Things I have no control over, caused this cynical feeling to come to the surface. I fought it back. I went into prayers, and talked alot to God, and I keep talking to him. Im not going to give up. I feel a sense of empowerment in my situation by prayer. At least I do not feel so alone. I dont feel so despairing. It lifts up my heart when the situation seems so hopeless.<br />
Even if I am falling down, I know I must get back up and keep trying, after all Christ died on the cross for me. The least I can do is pick myself up, dust off and try again.<br />
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You only lose your salvation if you choose this for yourself. Love one another as I have loved you.<br />
That includes yourself.

I understand. I feel that I have lost my salvation and I've been in despair for one year. I sinned my way out of God's grace. People are telling me to come back, but to what? I've lost my faith. How can God forgive me? I saw myself standing on the edge of hell and all hope is gone.

I do not fully understand how or why you would loose your salvation.If you dissapoint your parents are they going to leave you out in the cold?If I had to worry about every little thing in loving God I would not be as close to him. When Jesus hung on the cross He cried why has thow forsaken me?My you must be worried all the time.I'm sorry you feel this way.