I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore :(

How are you doing ??? try reading my stories if you are still in this situation.

You are not alone.

Between the late night hours of December 8th and the early morning hours of December 9th, 2012 the Lord cut my Silver Cord. Yet, He was still calling on me to repent from sin (Gluttony - biblical term for what society calls Overeating, Overstuffing). I tried to repent and knew being this way (Gluttonous) was wrong. But I never came to full repentance. It was This Monday, January 7th between the hours of 4 and 5 p.m. that He erased Himself from my conscious. He made me into a Prophetess and a Seer.

I am now a Reprobate. Since this Monday, I have received the below messages from Angels of the Lord.

It was this Monday that God erased Himself from my conscious. It happened between 4 and 5 p.m. (This came after I didn't repent from sin after He had called, and called and called for me to do so.) I don't know what to do. I have received several messages from Angels of the Lord telling me that:

December 6, 2013, past eight p.m.
'In God's eyes you are nothing, worthless.'
'He wants you to know how He feels.'
'A fever shall overcome you.' (like He did with all the prophets in the bible ... He was telling me how my end would come)

December 8, 2013, during the morning
'Jesus Christ has left you and shall not return.'
'For an angel of the Lord is with you.'
'Clothed in white.'

December 8, 2012, afternoon
'He will not hear you in this life or the life to come.' (came the moment I began thinking about going the chapel down the street and praying to Him)

December 9, 2013, during late morning
'A meeting was had on you.'
'You are deemed unfit for the kingdom.'
'You have no hope of Salvation.'

December 9, 2013, during early afternoon
'He doesn't want you, no longer accepts you.'
'The Father is through with you.'
'Saul.'

I know when I am hearing from the Lord. I made me into a Prophetess and Seer. I wish my life had not come to this. :(

- Tracy

My dear sister in Christ, I too had a similar experience. The demons are incubus and succubus, they are strong and you will need help in rebuking them. Dont give up.

You could use a deliverance ministry to help with all those demons. You absolutely must get rid of that problem. I do know what you mean, I have seen 2 actual demons, felt 1 posess me, and another one speak to me. It took several deliverance sessions and casting them and binding them to the abyss with by the blood of Christ. I was lucky to have a holy spirit filled pentecostal guy pray for me, which seemed to have helped. Holy spirit is like fire, if it goes, you need to find another source.



Secondly you need to fast and change completely. We are nearing the tribulation. You have a chance to be raptured, something no one in time has ever had, save Enoch. It's all about overcoming. Compromise with the part of you that wants to commit suicide. Stop living for you and start living for God, life is short, eternity is forever. That's my advice.

I would like to Say What I learned from Joseph Prince "Right believing gives birth to right living" I f you believe you are condemned ,and lost ,you will live like that, will you.

You Guys, This is all to the doctrine you have been believing,If you lose salvation then you are no longer obligated to serve righteousness,and that means you will live in sin. I have come to some conclusions that salvation is also a covenant ,like the law was a covenant. What happen to those that rejected the law of Moses? I have been to a church that taught if you lost salvation it was for good,and I wondered what there reasoning was. It was the fact that those who did despised moses law where put to death ,and how could they come ,and repent afterward once they were dead? They couldn't. So i understood there reasoning now concerning Christian lost of salvation,but it doesn't make it true however. I would say in your hearts you have determined you were lost,and also like I said,being saved means you are not obligated to the flesh to live according to it,also the Christian becomes a slave to righteousness,if you are not saved then you are not a slave to righteousness,being saved doesn't mean you go on sinning,but other would like to imply that , saying you can lose salvation ,if you lost it then you would sin ,and you would live in sin if you believed that. So these idiots going around telling people they can lose salvation isn't helping. Being saved is the why we need to not Romans 6:1,if you are not saved then there is no reason to obey this truth is there? This is for those for those who are saved ,not for the lost.

You Guys, This is all to the doctrine you have been believing,If you lose salvation then you are no longer obligated to serve righteousness,and that means you will live in sin. I have come to some conclusions that salvation is also a covenant ,like the law was a covenant. What happen to those that rejected the law of Moses? I have been to a church that taught if you lost salvation it was for good,and I wondered what there reasoning was. It was the fact that those who did despised moses law where put to death ,and how could they come ,and repent afterward once they were dead? They couldn't. So i understood there reasoning now concerning Christian lost of salvation,but it doesn't make it true however. I would say in your hearts you have determined you were lost,and also like I said,being saved means you are not obligated to the flesh to live according to it,also the Christian becomes a slave to righteousness,if you are not saved then you are not a slave to righteousness,being saved doesn't mean you go on sinning,but other would like to imply that , saying you can lose salvation ,if you lost it then you would sin ,and you would live in sin if you believed that. So these idiots going around telling people they can lose salvation isn't helping. Being saved is the why we need to not Romans 6:1,if you are not saved then there is no reason to obey this truth is there? This is for those for those who are saved ,not for the lost.

unuma



Sorry to hear you are so distressed. Are you in church? I f not please ask God to send you to one(you may actually haver to do some looking yourself) I know drink may apear to be helping but it actually makes things worse. try and go to the doctor to get on some ambien or lunesta ( do not take these every night, you can become dependant and have even worse problem's I will pray for the fear to leave, but you must stop sinning, OK? Me God nor anyone else help you if you dont head this advise, Ok?



Peace and Rest In Christ name, amen..

Brian

qalo



i feel the same way and the fear of death is on to me i know i have been saved but this days evil thoughts are entering my body like crazy sometimes i feel i am loosing my mind i drink alcohol everyday to lower the thoughts. i love my GOD cant afford to leave without him but i feel i have disobeyed HIM and HE has left me.i cant sleep at night thinking when i close my eyes i will be dead.

Let me say more. I've only recently begun to realize just how deeply in sin I've been the last 30 years, even right NOW unable to rid myself of troubles. Nevertheless, God's promises are stronger than I am, as long as I am willing to submit to the calling of the Holy Spirit to repentance. Be happy that you are troubled and in despair, because that is in fact God's calling. Be careful, you can miss the calling and fail to repent in time. Repentance requires DEEP meditation, the seeking of God, and it can be horribly painful, but if you commit yourself daily to prayer, scripture reading, full surrender, worship, fellowship and seeking of the leading of the Spirit, the Spirit will cleanse you and give you the strength and the opportunity to be forgiven. I am, even now, despite of my apparent entrapment in sin, in fellowship with the Holy Spirit. I don't yet know how He will help me resolve the difficulties I am facing, but He will. The one thing you can NEVER do is abandon hope - OR pass judgement on yourself. Remember, ONLY God is the judge of whether you have committed the unpardonable sin. If you are sincere in seeking forgiveness and repentance, pleading the power of that blood which was shed for you, then God cannot deny you. Read your Bible again.

read John Pipers desireing God. he describes in his book that you can blashem the Holy spirit here and now. it says it will not be forgiven him in THIS LIFE OR THE LIFE TO COME. so it can be commited by us here and now, however it says all other sins will be forgiven, so, the key is confessing all other sins and repenting of them. this is our hope, our only hope. God came to save us from sin, not hell, so sin is your punishment, sin and disobedience(not doing Gods will) will be what causes us to be beaten whith many stripes vs few stripes, does this make sence? it does to me because even though i may have lost my salvation i have not lost my God given spiritual gift of disernment, i / we are still owned by God, we are just not heirs, only slaves/servents. there is only one other hope you might believe in and that is hell may not last forever. here is a web site and a youtube video, however i caution you to still place your hope in repentance and not count on no punishment whatsoever. the old guy in this video seems to have proven beyond dought that aion does not mean forever and no clear thinking scholar can dispute that. please watch and write me with your comments, it will be encouraging to me because my mission is to still help others in this crisis, as well as the one soon to come upon our world. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJoNxjUAAi8&feature=related />
also visit tentmaker.org

God forgive us our sins and grant us repentantce

Brian

wow. i used to fear that i had been turned over to a reprobate mind, too, but i agree w/Sophia...there is only one unpardonable sin and if you have faith, you need not even entertain the thought.

there is only one unpardonable sin that is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. this is not what is happening to you. you are bombarded by evil thoughts because the devil is trying to bring you down. these thoughts are uncontrollable they just keep coming right? i have had terrible thoughts like this before too. just keep praying a lot ok? listen the very fact that you still are trying is proof that you are still saved. if your spirit was dead (if you no longer had the Holy Spirit) you wouldn't even be struggling against these thoughts. also you CANT accidently commit the unforgivable sin.



also willful sinning isn't just any premeditated sin. if that were the case then peter would have been lost. he had preached that all gentiles could be saved. but then when the pharisees came he denied this teaching because he was afraid of what the pharisees would think. that was a sin but he was forgiven. willful sin is total rejection of Jesus Christ and CONTINUING in that way of thinking. so just keep praying and keep strong. please reply to this comment also i would greatly appreciate it.

anuma25, I feel your pain. I died back in 2001 because I had a **** addiction that I tried to cure by giving myself over to it in order to "wear it out". However, all I did was make my addiction worse, blaspheme God by my willful sinning, and become possesed by demons. I have been tormented by evil on and off since then. Prayer does me no good because His Spirit is no longer willing to deal with me. My life is one of endless fear and I sometimes use pills or alcohol to numb the pain and the blasphemous thoughts that I cannot control. I used to be overflowing with hope and a strong desire to impress my Dad (God the Father) and my Big Brother (Jesus) but I just couldn't overcome my own body's desires. I am not alive anymore. I merely exist just waiting in fear of the day that I go down into the Pit. This is not how I wanted my story to end but I guess I earned it.

Is this happening recently? Or is it something that happened in the past that you are reflecting on? It really sucks though, and usually nobody believes you.



Then people tell you stuff like "You've changed or "what happened to the you?" which makes you feel down even more.



It's very traumatic too. :(



I've been praying to God a lot. And talking to Jesus. There is also the prayer to St. Michael. Those efforts really do help. My event went from Aug-Nov. I'm just now starting to not reflect on it as much anymore. It's so hard though. During Jan, I tried to look online or find people who went through the same experience, so I could have someone to relate to. It's also hard to talk to friends because they won't understand and ask, "you mean like anxiety?" I'm very grateful for my friends to try to support me, but it can be a sucky situation when no one can relate or understand.



How long has this been going on for you?



Wish you the best! God bless you :)