I am addicted to sex. I am/was saved by the Holy Ghost. I made vow to God to turn me over to a reprobate mind. I broke my vow not fully aware what a reprobate mind was and I was also sinning willfully. One dreadful night, demons attacked me to the point I wanted to committ sucide. They even spoke through me it was indeed scary. I need help! church and pray but these blamphemy thoughts about God will NOT go away. Its hard to read my bible because my mind thinks evil all the time. I feel like I cannot live life now. I am also in despair. Never ending torment of fear and evil thoughts. People think I am crazy and that I makig all if this up. :( why me. I all ever wanted was to be a virtous woman of God but now I am a reprobate. I too pray sometimes I feel like God is there and other times I do not. I am vulnerable now, I don't wan to do anything with life anymore. I was so happy when I had God in my life to the fullest. sigh but I am keeping the Faith no matter what! All I can do is try.