No One Wants Me

Ever since i was little, people have always found a way to push me away. I don't know what it is but people always tend to gravitate towards me and then leave me abruptly. Sometimes i feel like things have just ran their course but now i think that there's just something about me that will always keep me feeling so alone. My life is going nowhere and im always alone, not literally but emotionally i feel like there is no one i can talk to, no i can trust with anything, no one i can share any intimate knowledge, no one i can just talk to, and there's nothing changing to make my mind think differently. I feel as if the way i feel now is always going to be the same, and that i'll end up alone somewhere, dying and no one will ever remember me. No one will miss me. I'm alone and forever will be alone.
misternobrain misternobrain
26-30, M
2 Responses Jun 29, 2011

I'm so sorry that you feel that way. But, even though you may not realize it now , someone will always love you, whether it's your neighbor, friends at work, or even people on the website. You will always have friends wherever you are. And even right now, those of us who have met you or heard of you will always have you in mind, whether we're thinking about you now or tonight, or next year. I for one and thinking of you right now, and don't you ever forget that. I may not understand, but I hope you at least consider what I'm saying.

Thank you, i appreciate that... I just wish more people that directly know me would take the time to say this.

have you told them that you're so alone?

Yeah, people know how i feel...i'm just very unimportant, i struggle everyday to be rid of my loneliness but my attempts to find any sort of companionship are met with apathy. I can't blame others for not caring or loving me, i can't control the way people feel me, it's not like i can make anyone care for me or love me. I've learned it's just who i am that keeps people away and i've accepted that.

be firm. don't change who you are but don't put up with being lonely

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Hi. Just came across your story by chance and it makes me really sad. I too am alone most of the time. I am 42, single and don't even have any family in this country. They moved away when I was in my late teens. All of my friends are married and most have families of there own. I live alone, go out alone, try to pretend that it's okay but it's not. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. I try to be attractive, friendly, funny, healthy, I take classes but they have never led to me meeting anyone. No one should have to go through life alone unless they choose to do so. It's cruel. The only thing that makes me feel better about this is the fact that I have not had a child so I will never have to feel responsible for anyone else feeling this way too. I just keep plugging along hoping my time will come. I hope yours will too.

Thank you and i know exactly what you're going through, if you need someone to talk to.. im more than happy to listen.

thks guys you have motivated me to live with no regrets, i don't think my life is perfect and no one else's ever is but the first 11yrs were awosome and the past 5 were ok but you inspired me to be my best. im the best. no but enough playing i was sad for a while and that was only a small part of my life and the begining and end will get better, you seem like you've been sad all your life and i just want you to know i'm here for you so if you wanna talk inbox me.