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Not Meant to Be, I Guess

I though I had found someone who loved me twice in my life, but I was wrong both times.   The first time I though that I had found someone who loved me was when I was 18.  We talked on the phone constantly and saw each other when ever we could, but..... the guy left me the day after we slept together, which, by the way was my first time. 

The second time I thought I had found someone was my ex-husband.   But it turned out that all he was looking for was someone to be a second mother to him,  and for a while,I was okay with that, but when I started to stand up for myself, he didn't like it and when I started to refuse sex...well, he hated that even more.

I just don't think finding someone to love me is in the hand that I was dealt....I keep getting the jokers and I'm all out of draws.

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Lovelifegivelovelive!!@μ@!
The Law of One - You!
There is a simple formula you can use for the law of
attraction that will stand you in good stead with every person,
situation, and circumstance. As far as the law of attraction
is concerned, there is only one person in the world - you!
There is no other person, and nothing else as far as the law of
attraction is concerned. There is only you, because the law of
attraction is responding to your feelings! It's only what you give
that counts. And it's the same for every other person. And so
in truth the law of attraction is the law of you. There is only
you, and there is no other person. For the law of attraction the
other person is you, and that other person is you, and those
other people are you, because whatever you feel about anyone
else, you are bringing tThe Law of One - You!
There is a simple formula you can use for the law of
attraction that will stand you in good stead with every person,
situation, and circumstance. As far as the law of attraction
is concerned, there is only one person in the world - you!
There is no other person, and nothing else as far as the law of
attraction is concerned. There is only you, because the law of
attraction is responding to your feelings! It's only what you give
that counts. And it's the same for every other person. And so
in truth the law of attraction is the law of you. There is only
you, and there is no other person. For the law of attraction the
other person is you, and that other person is you, and those
other people are you, because whatever you feel about anyone
else, you are bringing.
What you feel about another person, what you think or
say about another person, what you do to another person -
you do to you. Give judgment and criticism and you give it
to yourself. Give love and appreciation to another person or
anything, and you give it to yourself. There is no other for the
law of attraction, so it makes no difference if someone else
has what you want, when you feel love for it you're including
it in your life! And with anything you don't love, simply turn
away from it without judgment, and you won't include it in
your life.
There Is Only Yes for the Law of Attraction
Turn away from the things you don't love and don't give
them any feeling. Don't say no to the things you don't love,
because saying no brings them to you. When you say no to
the things you don't love, you're feeling bad about them,
you're giving bad feelings, and you will receive those feelings
back as negative circumstances in your life.
You can't say no to anything, because when you say, ("No
I don't want that," )
you are saying yes to the law of attraction.
When you say
,( "The traffic is terrible," ")
(The service is really
bad," )
("They're always late,")
("It's so noisy in here,")
("That driver is a lunatic,")
"(I've been on hold for so long," you are saying yes
to these things and you are including more of all of them in
your life.
Turn away from the things you don't love and don't give
them any feeling, because they are fine as they are but they
have no place in your life.
"See no evil - hear no evil - speak no evil."
(17TH CENTURY)
Instead say yes when you see something you love. Say yes
when you hear something you love. Say yes when you taste
something you love. Say yes when you smell something you
love. Say yes when you touch something you love. It doesn't
matter if you have it or not, say yes to it, because then you are
choosing it by giving love. ..
There are no limits, and everything is possible if you really
want it, if you really desire it. There is no lack anywhere in
the universe. When people see a lack of anything, it's simply
a lack of love. There isn't a lack of health, money, resources or
happiness. The supply is equal to the demand. Give love, and you will receive _(*:::::)))(*(((:::::*_
Your Life - Your Story
You are creating the story of your life, so what story are
you telling about yourself? Do you believe there are things
you can and cannot do) Is that the story you are telling about
yourself? Because that story is not true.
Don't listen if someone says you are less than anyone else.
Don't listen if someone says you are limited in any way. Don't
listen if someone says you can't do what you love to do and
earn a living from it. Don't listen if someone says you are not
as valuable and worthy as the greatest human beings who've
lived. Don't listen if someone says you are not good enough
now and you have to prove yourself in life. Don't listen if
someone says you can't have what you love or do what you
love or be what you love. If you believe it, you put limits on
yourself, but more importantly, it is not true! There is not a
single thing that is too good for you, or too good to be true.
The force of love says, "Whatever you give, you receive
back." Does that say you're not good enough) The force of
love says, "Give love for whatever you want to be, do, or have
and you will receive it." Does that say you're not good enough?
You are worthy and deserving just as you are. You are good
enough now. If you feel you have done something that wasn't
right, understand that your realization and acceptance of it is
absolution for the law of attraction The Real World
"In the beginning there were only probabilities.
The universe could only come into existence if someone observed it. It does not matter that the
observers turned up several billion years later.
The universe exists because we are aware of it."
7(e4 (B. 1942)
ASTROPHYSICIST
I want to take you behind the scenes of the world you see,
because much of what you see is not as real as you may think
it is. A few adventurous steps into the invisible will change the
way you look at the world, and it will set you free to receive an
unlimited life.
Most of the things you may currently believe about the
real world are not true. You are much more than you may
realize. Life and the universe are much more than you may
realize. You may think there is a limited amount of things
in the world. You may think there's a limited amount of
money, health, and resources, but it isn't true. There is no
lack of anything. Quantum physics tell us there are infinite
planet Earths and infinite universes that exist, and we move
from one reality of planet Earth and a universe to another,
every fraction of a second. This is the real world emerging
through science
our universe we are tuned into the frequency
that corresponds to physical reality. But there are
an infinite number of parallel realities coexisting
with us in the same room, although we cannot
tune
into them."
(B. 1933)
N O BEL PRIZE- WINNING Q,yANTUM PIIYSICIST
You may think there's a shortage of time in the real world,
and because of that you may live your life rushing against
time, but the great scientist Albert Einstein told us that time
is an illusion.
"The distinction between past, present, and future
is only a stubbornly persistent illusion."
11879-1955)
NOBEL PRI Z E WINNING PHYSICIST
You may think that the real world is made up of living
things and dead things. But in the universe everything is alive
and nothing is dead. The stars, psun, planets, earth, air, water,
fire, and every object you see is seething with life. This is
the real world that is emerging.

There is a sense in the tree which feels your love and
responds to it. It does not respond or show its pleasure
in our way or in any way we can now understand."
(1834-1891)
NEW fHOUGHT AUTHOR
You may believe the real world is everything you can see,
and that everything you can't see isn't real. And yet the color
you see when you look at something is in fact not its real color.
Each thing absorbs all the colors that it really is, and reflects
the color it is not, and that's the color you see. So the sky is
actually every color but blue!
There are many sounds you can't hear because their
frequencies are beyond what you can hear, but they are
real. You can't see ultraviolet or infrared light, because their
frequencies are beyond what your eye can see, but they are
real. If you imagine all the known frequencies of light as the
size of Mount Everest, then all that you can see is smaller than
a golf ball!
You may believe the real world is made up of all the solid
things you can see and touch. But actually nothing is solid!
The chair you're sitting on right now is a force of moving
energy, and it's mostly space. So how real is your chair?
believe in the • things you can see and touch
is no belief at all; but to believe in the unseen
is a triumph and a blessing."
/-h.-co.,e (1809-1865)
16TH PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES
A story of limitation has been passed on from one
generation to the next through the history of humanity,
but the time has come to tell the real story.
The Real Story
The real story is that you are an unlimited being. The real
story is that the world and the universe are unlimited. There
are worlds and possibilities that you cannot see, but all of
them exist. You have to start telling a different story! You
have to start telling the story of your amazing life, because
whatever story you tell, good or bad, the law of attraction
must make sure you receive it, and it will be the story of
your life.
Imagine and feel whatever you want and those will be the
pictures you receive back in your life. Give love as much as
you can and feel as good as you can, and the force of love will
surround you with people, circumstances, and events that you
love. You can be whatever you want. What do you love? What do you want?
Let go of anything you don't love about your life story and
just keep the things you love. If you hold on to negative things
from your past, then you keep putting them into your story
every time you remember them, and they go back into the
pictures of your now.
Let go of the things you don't love about your childhood,
and keep the things you love. Let go of the things you don't
love about your adolescent and adult years, and keep the good
things. Just keep the things you love about your whole life. All
the negative things of the past are done, finished; you are not
the same person as you were then, so why keep putting them
in your story if they make you feel bad? You don't have to dig
negative things out of you
mighty, eternal and incomprehensible force pushes
,us all forward. But while all are so being pushed, many linger and look back. Unconsciously,
they ..oppose this force."
(1834-1891)
NEW fHOUGHT AUTHOR
If you keep telling a story of being a victim, then those
pictures will play over and over again in your life. If you keep
telling a story that you're not as smart as other people, or
not as attractive as other people, or not as talented as other
people, you will be right because they will become the pictures
of your life.
When you fill your life with love, you'll find that guilt,
resentment, and any negative feelings will leave you. And then
you will start telling the greatest story ever told, and the force
of love will light up your life with the pictures of the real story
of your amazing life.
"Love is the greatest power on earth. It conquers
all things. "
BORN MILDRED LISETT
NORMAN (1908- 1981)
PEACE ACTIVIST.
Lovelifegivelovelive!!@μ@!
The Law of One - You!
There is a simple formula you can use for the law of
attraction that will stand you in good stead with every person,
situation, and circumstance. As far as the law of attraction
is concerned, there is only one person in the world - you!
There is no other person, and nothing else as far as the law of
attraction is concerned. There is only you, because the law of
attraction is responding to your feelings! It's only what you give
that counts. And it's the same for every other person. And so
in truth the law of attraction is the law of you. There is only
you, and there is no other person. For the law of attraction the
other person is you, and that other person is you, and those
other people are you, because whatever you feel about anyone
else, you are bringing tThe Law of One - You!
There is a simple formula you can use for the law of
attraction that will stand you in good stead with every person,
situation, and circumstance. As far as the law of attraction
is concerned, there is only one person in the world - you!
There is no other person, and nothing else as far as the law of
attraction is concerned. There is only you, because the law of
attraction is responding to your feelings! It's only what you give
that counts. And it's the same for every other person. And so
in truth the law of attraction is the law of you. There is only
you, and there is no other person. For the law of attraction the
other person is you, and that other person is you, and those
other people are you, because whatever you feel about anyone
else, you are bringing.
What you feel about another person, what you think or
say about another person, what you do to another person -
you do to you. Give judgment and criticism and you give it
to yourself. Give love and appreciation to another person or
anything, and you give it to yourself. There is no other for the
law of attraction, so it makes no difference if someone else
has what you want, when you feel love for it you're including
it in your life! And with anything you don't love, simply turn
away from it without judgment, and you won't include it in
your life.
There Is Only Yes for the Law of Attraction
Turn away from the things you don't love and don't give
them any feeling. Don't say no to the things you don't love,
because saying no brings them to you. When you say no to
the things you don't love, you're feeling bad about them,
you're giving bad feelings, and you will receive those feelings
back as negative circumstances in your life.
You can't say no to anything, because when you say, ("No
I don't want that," )
you are saying yes to the law of attraction.
When you say
,( "The traffic is terrible," ")
(The service is really
bad," )
("They're always late,")
("It's so noisy in here,")
("That driver is a lunatic,")
"(I've been on hold for so long," you are saying yes
to these things and you are including more of all of them in
your life.
Turn away from the things you don't love and don't give
them any feeling, because they are fine as they are but they
have no place in your life.
"See no evil - hear no evil - speak no evil."
(17TH CENTURY)
Instead say yes when you see something you love. Say yes
when you hear something you love. Say yes when you taste
something you love. Say yes when you smell something you
love. Say yes when you touch something you love. It doesn't
matter if you have it or not, say yes to it, because then you are
choosing it by giving love. ..
There are no limits, and everything is possible if you really
want it, if you really desire it. There is no lack anywhere in
the universe. When people see a lack of anything, it's simply
a lack of love. There isn't a lack of health, money, resources or
happiness. The supply is equal to the demand. Give love, and you will receive _(*:::::)))(*(((:::::*_
Your Life - Your Story
You are creating the story of your life, so what story are
you telling about yourself? Do you believe there are things
you can and cannot do) Is that the story you are telling about
yourself? Because that story is not true.
Don't listen if someone says you are less than anyone else.
Don't listen if someone says you are limited in any way. Don't
listen if someone says you can't do what you love to do and
earn a living from it. Don't listen if someone says you are not
as valuable and worthy as the greatest human beings who've
lived. Don't listen if someone says you are not good enough
now and you have to prove yourself in life. Don't listen if
someone says you can't have what you love or do what you
love or be what you love. If you believe it, you put limits on
yourself, but more importantly, it is not true! There is not a
single thing that is too good for you, or too good to be true.
The force of love says, "Whatever you give, you receive
back." Does that say you're not good enough) The force of
love says, "Give love for whatever you want to be, do, or have
and you will receive it." Does that say you're not good enough?
You are worthy and deserving just as you are. You are good
enough now. If you feel you have done something that wasn't
right, understand that your realization and acceptance of it is
absolution for the law of attraction The Real World
"In the beginning there were only probabilities.
The universe could only come into existence if someone observed it. It does not matter that the
observers turned up several billion years later.
The universe exists because we are aware of it."
7(e4 (B. 1942)
ASTROPHYSICIST
I want to take you behind the scenes of the world you see,
because much of what you see is not as real as you may think
it is. A few adventurous steps into the invisible will change the
way you look at the world, and it will set you free to receive an
unlimited life.
Most of the things you may currently believe about the
real world are not true. You are much more than you may
realize. Life and the universe are much more than you may
realize. You may think there is a limited amount of things
in the world. You may think there's a limited amount of
money, health, and resources, but it isn't true. There is no
lack of anything. Quantum physics tell us there are infinite
planet Earths and infinite universes that exist, and we move
from one reality of planet Earth and a universe to another,
every fraction of a second. This is the real world emerging
through science
our universe we are tuned into the frequency
that corresponds to physical reality. But there are
an infinite number of parallel realities coexisting
with us in the same room, although we cannot
tune
into them."
(B. 1933)
N O BEL PRIZE- WINNING Q,yANTUM PIIYSICIST
You may think there's a shortage of time in the real world,
and because of that you may live your life rushing against
time, but the great scientist Albert Einstein told us that time
is an illusion.
"The distinction between past, present, and future
is only a stubbornly persistent illusion."
11879-1955)
NOBEL PRI Z E WINNING PHYSICIST
You may think that the real world is made up of living
things and dead things. But in the universe everything is alive
and nothing is dead. The stars, psun, planets, earth, air, water,
fire, and every object you see is seething with life. This is
the real world that is emerging.

There is a sense in the tree which feels your love and
responds to it. It does not respond or show its pleasure
in our way or in any way we can now understand."
(1834-1891)
NEW fHOUGHT AUTHOR
You may believe the real world is everything you can see,
and that everything you can't see isn't real. And yet the color
you see when you look at something is in fact not its real color.
Each thing absorbs all the colors that it really is, and reflects
the color it is not, and that's the color you see. So the sky is
actually every color but blue!
There are many sounds you can't hear because their
frequencies are beyond what you can hear, but they are
real. You can't see ultraviolet or infrared light, because their
frequencies are beyond what your eye can see, but they are
real. If you imagine all the known frequencies of light as the
size of Mount Everest, then all that you can see is smaller than
a golf ball!
You may believe the real world is made up of all the solid
things you can see and touch. But actually nothing is solid!
The chair you're sitting on right now is a force of moving
energy, and it's mostly space. So how real is your chair?
believe in the • things you can see and touch
is no belief at all; but to believe in the unseen
is a triumph and a blessing."
/-h.-co.,e (1809-1865)
16TH PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES
A story of limitation has been passed on from one
generation to the next through the history of humanity,
but the time has come to tell the real story.
The Real Story
The real story is that you are an unlimited being. The real
story is that the world and the universe are unlimited. There
are worlds and possibilities that you cannot see, but all of
them exist. You have to start telling a different story! You
have to start telling the story of your amazing life, because
whatever story you tell, good or bad, the law of attraction
must make sure you receive it, and it will be the story of
your life.
Imagine and feel whatever you want and those will be the
pictures you receive back in your life. Give love as much as
you can and feel as good as you can, and the force of love will
surround you with people, circumstances, and events that you
love. You can be whatever you want. What do you love? What do you want?
Let go of anything you don't love about your life story and
just keep the things you love. If you hold on to negative things
from your past, then you keep putting them into your story
every time you remember them, and they go back into the
pictures of your now.
Let go of the things you don't love about your childhood,
and keep the things you love. Let go of the things you don't
love about your adolescent and adult years, and keep the good
things. Just keep the things you love about your whole life. All
the negative things of the past are done, finished; you are not
the same person as you were then, so why keep putting them
in your story if they make you feel bad? You don't have to dig
negative things out of you
mighty, eternal and incomprehensible force pushes
,us all forward. But while all are so being pushed, many linger and look back. Unconsciously,
they ..oppose this force."
(1834-1891)
NEW fHOUGHT AUTHOR
If you keep telling a story of being a victim, then those
pictures will play over and over again in your life. If you keep
telling a story that you're not as smart as other people, or
not as attractive as other people, or not as talented as other
people, you will be right because they will become the pictures
of your life.
When you fill your life with love, you'll find that guilt,
resentment, and any negative feelings will leave you. And then
you will start telling the greatest story ever told, and the force
of love will light up your life with the pictures of the real story
of your amazing life.
"Love is the greatest power on earth. It conquers
all things. "
BORN MILDRED LISETT
NORMAN (1908- 1981)
PEACE ACTIVIST.

I know what u mean, I been with same guy for 4 yrs,now, but it like im on a roller coaster ride wit him, I mean 1 minute he lov'n on me n say'n how much he loves me, n then the next minute he push'n me away n treat'n me like he doesn't want me around, I just don't know what 2 do any more, I thought it was meant 2 b but here in the past 2 yrs now im not so sure. Iam seriously think'n bout leav'n, I mean I have tried everything in this relarionship 2 make it work but it just feels like a 1 sided relationship n I just don't think I can take it any more, n iam really good 2 him but I just feel like im bein taken 4 granted n feel so unappreciated n im just tired of fight'n 4 somet hg'n that doesn't seem 2 b there,i mean 4 me it is there but I don't think it is there 4 him any more n mayb ut never was I d k but I know I can't live like this any more.

A lot of men will say anything to get a girl into bed,then people get married but that doesn't mean that they're right for each other,some people never marry but stay together for life,don't give up trying to find your special someone!:)

i fell u need to jus let love find u and stop trying so hard to find love. what god have for u is for you. jus trust god and he will work it out for you

Sometimes, the best things happen when you least expect them. I was heartbroken too, and though I am not completely healed, I am on my way. Everyone deserves love and everyone will have at least one chance. Take the time you are alone and build something for yourself. Find a new hobby, travel, finish a project or start a new one. Most of the time, you find what you are looking for when you stop looking for it. Take heart and don't give up. just be patient, you have quite a few years ahead of you. :)

They do say that third time is the charm :)

i gez oll u have to do is have sometime to think all ur blessings that GOD gv to u..rather than craving 4 something that wasn't meant 4 you..girls be hapi..lyf is beautiful..

me too. what a big fat drag it's turned out to be.I am so disappointed I could cry..and I have.I have seen and I know of older people getting a shot at love. In their 70's and older. How sweet . They will not be alone.