I want love more than anything in the world, but I don't want to date just any girl. I need a girl who is mature and knows what love is. I'm tired of everyday being the same, why live if there is no escaping. I have never cried over a girl till i met my last one. I thought she mean't every word she said to me, she lied when she loved me. After a month of us breaking up, she had no love for me at all. Everyday i would see her talking to some guy that she never talked to before. She tells me my happiness mattered and i cared and that shes sorry for letting this guy touch her and flirt with her. Then the next day she would do it all over again. Now its summer, I don't see her, i cant get over her. I have the fear she lost her virginity or is seeing some guy. all the time. I'm so paranoid, I just want her back, but she doesn't feel the same. There is no escape, there is no other girl I want. I don't want to wait, I want love soon.