My Insecurities Are Eating Me Alive. This Is Something I've Never Experienced Until Now.Alright so, I'm basically 16 but really I'm only still 15 for two months, and I have this problem which I've developed only since a year ago or so.
I have this constant narcissistic issue.
I lost my confidence and I have no idea why.
Why is it that, co-workers at my parents work will see photos of me and be like "oh, she is beautiful" and strangers like at hair salons will agree, and even my friends have told me they're jealous of me. Then I take a long hard look at myself in the mirror, and I feel HIDEOUS. I mean, so much so that sometimes I want to avoid leaving my house..
I never felt like that, I look back on pictures of me before and wish I still looked like the girl in those pictures. Maybe I DO? Maybe I'm seen differently to everyone. I just can't live a happy life feeling depressed and insecure and nobody is understanding why because they're clearly seeing something that I'm not.
This won't really help anything but to describe myself, I'm very tall and very thin.. which is why I used to be called anorexic but I eat everything, I just have a fast metabolism.
I have tanned skin because I'm biracial and Mexican, & a mix of a lot of other things.
I've been told I have an exotic look?
I have huge dark brown eyes, which I find are too big for my small face. I have short curly brown hair, which I also hate at times.
kristendenise 16-17, F 3 Responses 0 Jul 18, 2012