My Love Life

Am I afraid that I'll never meet someone to reallylove me? No. I'm afraid that I'll never meet anyone who even pretends they love me.

I'm 35 as of a few days ago and the longest relationship I've had is like 6 months. There are a couple of scenarios that usually play out in my love life. The first, and most common, is that I meet someone, usually on the Internet, and it turns out to be a one date affair. That's fine. However, it's the second scenario that rips me up. I'll meet someone that I like and who I assume likes me. We will go out for a couple of weeks and it will fall apart. Why? I'm not sure but I'm assuming that it has a lot to do with my confidence level around women, which is deteriorating every year. The worst part about it is the pain of rejection and being alone again after things fall apart.

35 years old and not one real relationship under my belt. Pathetic. Should I just give up and become a celebate monk?

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2 Responses Mar 6, 2009

Hang on. It will happen

I say NO! You are just practicing with your heart until you find someone that will truly cherish it, hug it, and blend it unto their own.<br />
"Don't cry that things are over, smile and be glad that they happened"<br />
Yea it's cliche but it's helped me through a lot of my seriously short relationships too, hell my longest relationship was about 14 months and that particular one I knew was never going to get me or her anywhere, I was just too afraid to tell her until I exploded and admitted it one day.<br />
Take care chum, don't give up.