Please Don't Let Me Be a Failure!
I am terrified of being a failure. Mostly being a failure to my family. I don't want to ever be a disapointment to my parents. I don't want to fail as a parent to my children. I don't want to fail as a wife. But I'm afraid I might someday. I'm not highly educated, though I do consider myself to be intelligent. But in this dog eat dog world. Intellengence doesn't always cut it if you don't have the credintials to back it up. I can't get a job making a lot of money. Not to say I couldn't in the future. But I don't know if that will ever happen. I don't know the future or what it will hold. But I'm terrified of the possibility that I might fail at what I want to acheive and in turn be a failure to my family. They need me. They depend on me. If something were to happen to my spouse right now. I don't know how we would make it. He's the bread winner. I don't like that feeling of being helpless. Not being able to help him in supporting us. I just want to be able to suceed if for some reason, God forbid, something were to happen to him and he was unable to help, or I were left to do it alone. If I don't push myself to suceed and that ever happens, my fears would be realized. I would be a failure and I can't let that happen. So God please don't let me fail.