Are We Meant To Be Alone?
My biggest fear is being alone. Growing old and being alone scares me more than death. Not having anyone to talk or just that affection. Were human we need to know that someone cares about us. We hunger for touch. Do you really think there is a person out there for everyone? Or are some people really meant to be alone? I've been alone for so long now that I'm starting to think I'm one of those people who are probably meant to be alone. After my best friend passed away I've been afraid of letting people in because I fear in the end I'll end up alone again. As you get older its harder finding someone you connect with. I honestly don't see myself getting married or having children. A part of me does want to but the other part of me doesn't. You get married, have children, grow older, lose your spouse then your alone. In the end I'll be right back where I started. I don't want that emptiness and sadness of losing your spouse. Sitting in a nursing home looking out the window just reminiscing. I can't take that pain its too much. I work at a nursing home and I see it everyday with the residents. Half of their children don't even visit them they just wait until they pass away so they can take over their wealth. I hate age and I hate being alone. I would rather die young. Although I have a feeling I'm going to be around for a long time. I'll be the oldest and loneliest person alive