I Have A Terrible Fear Of Money.

let me explain: i'm not good at math. In fact, the only math I know is how to pay the bills math. It's like I push this money thing away from me or something. I cannot explain it. But I can't do math in my head, it's almost like I'm retarded when it comes to math. I failed tests all the time and yes, i suffer from test anxiety. All my community college teachers told me that I would never be able to get a degree because I cannot even do basic math. To me, this has carried over into my adult life and now I find myself working for $8.00/hr thru a temp agency for a pharmecuetical company.
So, I have taught myself for yrs how to learn to live on practically nothing!
 Don't believe me? try living on $566.00/mnth in SSI. and gettin $117.00/mnth in food stamps.That's living in the barest essentials. I've always been poor. I grew up poor and it shamed me but now I'm 45 yrs old and I don't have a choice at this age. So, I make do with the best I can.
I learned from others who make hundreds of thousands a yr who look down their noses at ppl like me and i think to myself, it will all end someday, and for those who are afraid of being poor, it might be the best thing that ever happened to you. Why?
 Because, look at it like this: you can't take it with you when you die,right? So, why not enjoy those things while you can because you could lose everything tomorrow. and then where will you be? save your money for survival gear and learn to put things away for hard times suchas learning to can your own food. Learn to grow your own garden, use and reuse things, learn to be frugal. It does not hurt. Hell, Howard Hughes was one of the richest men in the world, but he drove an old beat up truck eveyrwhere until he got sick. Rich people don't flaunt their money, they hide the fact that they even have money.
 I learned to let go of material things. Sure, it's nice to eat out once in awhile, but i can cook better than most fast food joints and i save my money when i grocery shop.
 I try to be as careful as I can with every single dime. I have to, I know when it's time for me to retire, that I will not be able to. There will not be any SS money left for me. There won't be any retirement money. Alot of folks think their companies care about them. They don't care about you. They want that retirement money and they will get it back. Why? Because they are crooks and thieves and they are gonna screw you just like they will me.
 Why else do you think America is being turned into a 3rd world country?
pennyhawkins1966 pennyhawkins1966
51-55, F
1 Response Mar 28, 2011

i can't believe how much we have in common omg!