My First/only Love Is Marrying Someone Else :(
I'm so sad. I'm 35 and have only loved 1 girl. It was 5 years ago and I still love her, I've always loved her. We were so connected, she seemed to be my soulmate, we would talk for hours every night and it was always exciting. I always thought she just needed time and that we would end up together. Its been 5 years and I said hi to her a year ago, but she didn't keep in touch. I tried again just recently. This time she seems excited to hear from me but tells me she has plans to get married and that she's met an amazing man. I am totally devastated. I should have been that man, he's leading MY life, he's going to be happy with MY girl. I don't know what to do, I'm frantic, I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm totally lost. There are NO other girls like her, believe me, I've looked. I feel like I met such an amazing girl in her and our connection was so unbelievable that I will never fall in love again if I dont experience that level of connection again with someone else. I'm afraid this will never happen and I don't want to settle for just some girl that I don't feel strongly for. My one hope for happiness is about to marry someone else. My life doesn't seem to have any meaning any more. I don't know what to do. I'm sad all the time now, I dont know how to cope with this.