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My First/only Love Is Marrying Someone Else :(

I'm so sad. I'm 35 and have only loved 1 girl. It was 5 years ago and I still love her, I've always loved her. We were so connected, she seemed to be my soulmate, we would talk for hours every night and it was always exciting. I always thought she just needed time and that we would end up together. Its been 5 years and I said hi to her a year ago, but she didn't keep in touch. I tried again just recently. This time she seems excited to hear from me but tells me she has plans to get married and that she's met an amazing man. I am totally devastated.  I should have been that man, he's leading MY life, he's going to be happy with MY girl. I don't know what to do, I'm frantic, I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm totally lost. There are NO other girls like her, believe me, I've looked. I feel like I met such an amazing girl in her and our connection was so unbelievable that I will never fall in love again if I dont experience that level of connection again with someone else. I'm afraid this will never happen and I don't want to settle for just some girl that I don't feel strongly for.  My one hope for happiness is about to marry someone else.  My life doesn't seem to have any meaning any more. I don't know what to do. I'm sad all the time now, I dont know how to cope with this.

RomanticTraveler RomanticTraveler 31-35 51 Responses Nov 13, 2008

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I have almost the same experience...i have a bf for a year now,and he is from a different race and different culture...i love him so much,i just dont know if he can feel it,he was my everything,i take good care of him everyday....i cooked and wash clothes for him...im almost a wife to him... But his culture dont allow him to marry outside there sect... And im not from his country...one day he told me that his parents arranged a girl for him in marriage... I didnt know what to do and how i feel... Until now it still hunts me.. All the memories and heartaches i cant cope up... I can't love another man, i closed all the doors to my heart. He told me to get a good man for me. Im feeling so hopeless. I dont know if the one for me is really out there. I just wished i was the one he would marry. I cant stop crying. Everytime i remember him even at the bus i would still cry., i feel cheated and dumped., if he just fight for me, he will not regret everything., but im the failure., hope i can open up my heart the next time someone tap in my heart., and i hope someone will marry me...

Well I can say thus happened yo me 7 years ago. Still trying to recover. He's my bench mark, no others compare.
My mother once told me you may love many, however you only give your heart to one. Be sure that's the one you marry or else you'll lead a very long unfulfilled love life. If only I had have read between the lines!

I've had a similar, if not the same experience..but in my case it was unrequited love. I loved a girl. She was the best thing I ever laid my eyes upon. I fell in love with her from the very first day I saw her. There hasn't been a single day or night when I haven't thought of her - even now her name and words make my heart sink deeper than ever - because I cannot be with her. Naturally I tried to become friends with her. We became really good friends. I told her how I feel about her, but she refused my request, stating her past breakup as a reason - she hadn't gotten over that guy. When I think of it, she also was facing a similar situation as me but only with respect to her ex. I tried convincing her to give me a chance - I loved her more than anything else in this whole wide world :( But she didn't yield. She was apparently a 'bad girlfriend' and that is why she wasn't given a chance with her ex. So I was supposed to feel good about that assumption of her's, that she is a bad girlfriend and be happy about that. Moreover, now that we are good friends, she doesn't want to spoil our beautiful friendship - kudos. But I can't forget her. I love her too much..I've tried getting over her, but it hasn't been possible till now. I haven't been able to date other girls too. Funny, though, considering I never dated her even once, or any other girl for that matter. Now she wants to marry a random new guy, because she thinks that is the only way she can be happy, forgetting her ex and all. WHY GOD, just why wasn't I given a chance? I don't care as to whether she is a from a different culture. I'm not bothered by the fact that our cultures do not match at all..I love her a lot. I don't know whether this injury to my heart will ever be healed..:( I'm in the highest level of friendzone that there ever is :P

My sons father and I were together 6 years and separated when I was pregnant with our second child. He was verbally and physically abusive sometimes and I felt we needed time apart. He was worried about his parents being disappointed so he told me to get an abortion. I dod and was bitter depressed and angry. I started dating someone afterwards but truly loved him so we still made live sometimes and the other relationship wasnt serious. In Dec he started seeing this female from another state. In January I realized how much I wanted to make it work. January 30th we were together for the last time and before he left he told me he was engaged to the girl he met in December. My birthday was February 5th he told me he loves me and I know he does on February 8th of this year he married her in less than 60 fays. Im devestated. Swinging between crying and anger. Felling rejected and wondering why he married her and not me. I Feel hopeless and like my life is over. I moved to this city and other than my job see no reason to stay here. I know I will never find anyone like him again. We know eachothers innermost thoughts. I am devastated. What do I do. Its been 2 days and I feel lime giving up on life.

hi, I found out yesterday that my ex of three years, who I left for various reasons is getting married. my daughter casually announced it whilst I was chatting to a friend. I am devastated. I have just spent an hour in the bath crying like a baby. I loved him when I left but there were complications that were making me very unhappy. we were engaged and I could truly imagine spending the rest of my life with him. leaving was the hardest thing I have ever done but I always thought or knew that when he had sorted himself out, we would find each other again. in the last twenty four hours I have been angry, desperate, stiff upper lipped and tearful! at the present mment I feel sick and scared because it feels like my future has just disappeared. im 37 and I have tried loving someone else but he is still in my heart so nothing ever worked out. I have considered going to the wedding and stopping it, I have considered contacting him and telling him to come home and for a fleeting moment considered running up the isle singing 'it should of been me'! friends have reacted in different ways to my plight. I have been advised to move on, go out on a bender, stop the wedding and some of the above. the worst part is when I saw him just over a year ago he told me he still truly loved me and was with this other woman because he had been seriously ill and she had taken care of him. I know in my heart he still loves me but he has made his devastating choice. I truly understand the way you were feeling and I would love to know how it worked out for you. I wish you all love and happiness on this very sad day.........

Its really very sad fa me as ma love of life is getting married today.I had a crush on her when I was in class 10th and even proposed to her by writing a luv letter but she rejected it and then we got in touch on FB n became gud friends and in August 2012 she got engaged and then she dropped me a msg on FB on March 2013 about her engagement and I did stop txting her since then. Suddenly I had received a msg on my FB account in May 2013. Things were not wrking out with the guy whom she was engaged and as I always wanted her in my life, I proposed her knowing the future concequences and it really started wrking out well for us even though it was a long distance relationship and I was very successful in trying convinceing ma parents as she is a Catholic and I am a Hindu. She was quiet disturbed with the abuses from her fiance and she tried convincing her parents of cancelling the wedding but her parents started with emotional blackmailing and she broke down for that and she agreed to marry the same guy to whom she was engaged. Today I had been near to function hall where her Roce ceremony took place. And tomorrow is her big day. I am going through a very bad situation. After reading all your comments n experience, I really wanted to share my experience. If anytime she is ready to come back., I'll be happiest guy on this planet.
God bless you all. <3

Ok here are my "two cents" to this topic.
About 20 years ago when I was in elementary school, I met my first one and only love. Everything was perfect in the beginning, the moment I saw her everything stood still, and she did kinda feel the same. All was fine until I ****** up everything, when other kids started to make fun of us, I could not control my ego and made the worst decision of my entire life. I turned against her, yes I still cant believe how stupid I was. I started name calling her...
Shortly after that everything went down the drain, a year later we went to different high schools and so lost all contact. I than searched for more than years for her I had no clue where she lived since she also had moved within the city. When I finally found her, 10 years after elementary school. I had the chance to finally apologize for what I did back there and I hoped we could start over again. BUT I was about years too late, she was already married...

Even after 20 years I cant stop thinking of her and the pain is as same as strong and devastating as it was back there. I am also quiet sure that I will never ever find someone like her again (at least I never did so far) and that I will probably never love anyone as I did her. I really don't know how to continue and I am constantly asking myself if there is still some hope or some option left somewhere to get her back. But I don't think so, in the end I paid the highest price for a tiny mistake I made 20 years ago when I was just a stupid little kid...

I can really understand where you all are coming from. I met who I believe is my soulmate 7 years ago in college. I saw him in class and I was immediately drawn to him. I sought him out and we began what would be a life changing relationship. We had our ups and downs, he hurt me and I hurt him. I was 18 when we met and he was 21. We were both immature and made mistakes, but we always found our way back to each other.

In 2008, he moved away after his graduation. We kept in touch and kept things going until 2009. I haven't seen him since. He met someone a few months later and didn't call when he was back in town. I knew and it was devastating but I then met someone as well. In 2010 after I had been dating my boyfriend for almost a year, he contacted me. She had broken up with him and he took the time to think and realized he loved me still and hoped that we could work. I shot him down. I was too afraid of breaking my boyfriend's heart and of what everyone else would think. I now know that I made a mistake that day that I can't take back.

They got back together later that year and he and I have not talked since early 2011. I am still with my boyfriend but realized in late 2011 that I made a huge mistake. I've never had the gall to reach out and tell my soulmate that I still love him, that I miss him and think of him every day. I love my boyfriend but he isn't the one and I can't keep this going, neither of us deserve it. He is a wonderful guy but he isn't who I want to marry, who I want to have a family with.

I found out last night that my soulmate and his girlfriend got engaged two weeks ago. It feels like someone died, my heart hurts so bad I wonder if can get past this.

I just don't understand why God would keep forcing the memories back into my life for it to end like this. I've tried everything. Deleting him from every social media outlet there is, trying to hate him, moving on with someone else, seeing a therapist. Nothing has worked and now I have to watch him marry and have a life with someone else. I dream about him constantly, there are signs everywhere. I somehow always thought that he would come back to me again. Everything about us fit, our connection, our interests, our personalities. I can clearly envision a life with him that will now never happen and I feel lost.

I don't know how to move past this but I have to. Being in this city where it all started is hard too, maybe it's time to leave. I just somehow know that I'll never love someone like that again and I don't know how to deal with it. Please pray for me to find peace and move on.

I know exactly how you feel, the love of my life, the only man I've ever loved just married someone else a month ago. Its awful I just keep thinking its not supost to be this way. The man I'm met to marry isn't supost to just marry someone else. But what am I going to do, the days are okay I can keep myself busy its the nights that are hard, the dreams of when he and I were together and in love. its crazy to think that we went from being in love to him being married to someone else in just a short six months.

It will be October soon. He will be married to his fiance. I can only cry and look the other way. My friends tell me to move on...but its easier said than done. How can you stop loving someone when your heart can\'t stop loving that person?

same situation dear....exactly same..:(

At this moment right now I'm in love with a man I believe to be my soulmate. When I'm sad he can sense me. It amazes me how we connect on every level. The moment he told me he loves me, my heart melted and there I was weak and full of passion. I love him so much, more than I thought I can ever love anyone. Unfortunately this man is engaged and he is getting married in Oct. I understand that he is doing what is right. His relationship with her is not great but he loves his daughter. I'm not gonna stand in his way, I rather suffer alone. The only thing I can do is walk away and love him from a distance. I have to come to terms that we are not meant to be and I am happy to have met him even if I was late.

Damned this cold life!
All is lost and there is no more time!

I know what you are going through my friend. I was with my high school sweetheart for over 6 years and we separated during college. At the time, the break up seemed like the right thing to do. We both needed to grow on our own and find out what we wanted in life. About a year or so later I find out she is with someone else. That was hard for me especially being in no position to meet someone new myself. After having the oppurtunity to meet new women, I am realizing that she was always the type of girl I want to be with. On top of that, we had a connection that I can't see having with anyone else. Its been a couple years now. I've been trying to focus on myself and I've been limiting my contact with her for she is with someone else, but now I see that she is happy with that new person. He may even be a better man than me, but now I've reached a new level of sadness. My only advice and tool I use myself is to imagine all the problems and disagreements that could arise in a new relationship together. Maybe she has changed in ways that would not interest you. Ultimately, maybe realizing that she has found something better than what you had with her will end that chapter of your life. Sadly, I know what you mean when you say that life has lost meaning though.

Eso es todo. A lo lejos alguien canta. A lo lejos.
Mi alma no se contenta con haberla perdido.

That’s all. In the distance, someone sings. In the distance.

My soul is not at peace with having lost her.

—Pablo Neruda, Veinte poemas de amor: 20,
The Essential Neruda: Selected Poems

At least we are in good company. Mine was the light of my life, and now is a shadow that haunts me dreams. Visas and youth us apart, and the rest is a story you know too well. People come and go so I'm going to try and focus on loves like art and music which are less easily ******** from us. Not everyone experiences a great love so maybe we should consider ourselves lucky.

I have loved two girls in my life. Thank god I was capable of that or the first girl would have been my end as she was my everything and had I lost that without another meaning to life i do doubt I would have continued on. Yet now I have grown older and my first love is with another and my second seems depressed and broken yet I still cannot manage to get the guts or really commit to finding either of them out and just saying I want you, I need you and your mine. I know down the road I will regret this complacency and it will destroy me yet I cannot manage to motivate myself to change this. Both are or have been with friends I know (honestly I couldn't care less) but something is blocking me from pursuing it. I would love help or advise mostly counseling.

Hi, I know this was posted years ago, but I just had to write something. The love of my life is getting married to someone else tomorrow. I'm so upset... We have not been together for 8 years!!!! But there isn't one day that I haven't thought about her. I guess the fact we have kept in contact via Facebook really hasn't helped. We did briefly have a night together, but I ****** it because I was seeing someone else at the time. I know this makes me sound like a horrible person, I'm not. I'm a stupid ******* idiot, that's what I am. If anyone is reading this, now or 10 years down the line experiencing the same heartache, remember you're not alone in what you're feeling.... I don't know how to get past this, it's all too final, I should of tried something sooner, but that's me all over, weak. Now I have paid the ultimate price, lost the one I love so much I feel my eyes welling up just thinking about her and I have no one to blame but me. I just needed to vent somewhere where no one knows me, I hope you can understand that, it does feel a bit better doing so :)

When I was 16 I met this amazing girl who was also my age. The time we spent together went by fast. After a year, her family had to move to another country, this was very stupid of me, but I didn't have the guts to say goodbye to her. I don't know why, it didn't hit me immediately the fact that she was gone, a couple of years later I finally understood, she wasn't coming back. I've had many chances with many other girls, yet my heart never seems interested. It's been 13 years, and this feeling has not waned. She got married 4 years ago and gave birth to their firstborn 2 weeks ago. I'm happy cuz I know she's happy, but at the same time it kills me a little each day that passes, knowing that could've been me. Life took away my princess and never gave her back. I don't know if there was anything I could've done different. 13 years, and the memories we made together are still the best of my life, though I'm afraid all those "what if" will haunt me until my last breath.

I believe I will be where you are some time in the future and have to ask myself the same questions. I also seem to lack the follow through or what you wish to call it to risk everything just to try and change it.

If you love them and they're your soulmate, they feel the same about you then fight. Fight for the woman you love. If you don't try your hardest you will spend the rest of your life wondering. 'What if' will drive you crazy. I lost my first love because I was afraid to speak up and tell him how I felt. We both likes each other fiercely but I was 15 and he was 19, thus every one we knew tried to keep us apart. We had a pure connection but nobody cared they saw that I was too young. I have always had an old soul so we connected immediately. He was afraid of my family, and we both were afraid of rocking the boat. There are so many things left unsaid between us. Lack of communication between he and I, fear from others and older girls willing to put out aren't as scary as what he was facing with me, I didn't blame him though. Couple years late, He dated others andwound up moving, he moves back just after I was seeing someone. He wanted to see me as friends so we met, but everything came back to us and I felt 15 again. I finally had enough courage to tell him how in love with I was years ago and still was, also I was beginning a relationship. We said good-bye as friends only. Saw him a few more times, then I heard he was engaged but that he had broken it off, and spoke of me. I regret not being with him, the man I was in less than 1 year relationship with was a miserable one, we found all the time and he mistreated me. Something always kept us apart. He told me how he regretted how he handled our "relationship" years ago, that's when I told him how head over heels I was for him. But I foolishly let him go because I didn't want to hurt the man I was trying to start one with. I didn't know till it was trot late that my first love spoke of me foundly and often, he wanted me back...I found out after he died. His death was a great shock to me, the what could have been is still killing me 3 months later. I'm angry at those who kept us apart. And angry at myself for wasting my life for nearly a year on a man who toward the end pushed me, shoved me and cursed at me. I wasted that time when I should've fought for my love. We were both to scared to speak up to the other. Scared of what people would think or say then we let time slip past us further and further away he got. Then in one moment he was gone, a car crash... my worsy fear came true im living my nightmare. He never wore a seatbelt, he went through the windshield, it was horrific. Now he haunts me, my dreams, my thoughts. So I say fight fight for your love fight for who you want. Torture and misery and many what ifs will haunt you all of your days if you don't. I wish you well. I sincerely hope that everyone deserving of love can find their mate and be happy.

Reading your story made my heart sink a little deeper than I had expected when reading such stories. Lets say I have been the idiot in a car crash twice because I couldn't keep my mind off the girls I love. I am not sure (well doubt always wells and I just don't know anymore) if the girl would love me and wane over me. My gut tells me if the same thing would happen to me she would be in your position and yet I am locked down too afraid to change it. We've both shared and are very close but somehow she has always seemed distant. I just have no clue. Sometimes your so lost in for thoughts and destroyed emotionally remembering that you want to be in a car wreck just to see if she cares and loves you since she has never shown it. Is it possible that I'm living a fantasy or that she is very quiet and held back and wouldn't say it. I would much love readers advice.

I know how you feel, sadly this happens alot. I lost my soulmate. We were in love so deeply two years ago, he lived 20 miles away and we had no way of seeing each other, but we kept in touch the best we could. Talked for hours, both admitted neither has been happier. There were months we couldn't speak for one reason or another, it seemed fate and life always kept us apart. He asked me to marry him and I told him yes, he had names picked out for our future children. Then we had a fight and 6 months later I find out hes married. He never called, wrote, nothing. I find out from his mother that hes married, and he doesn't even care me anymore. The month prior to this, my first love died, I met him when I was 14 I thought I was over him, then I heard how horrificly he died. No one called me, I had to read about it on facbook. I knew him for nearly 10 years and hes gone. You never wver truly get over your true love. In two months i lost my first love and my soulmate. My heart is beyond crushed and I feel like I'm dying inside everyday. I'm alone in this too, my best friend is glad my soulmate isn't with me. And no one cares enough to try to comfort me about the loss of the life of my first love. I'm in pain everyday, alone in agony.

At the risk of seeming dumb and oblivious, but is your best friend that you mentioned maybe a boy and possibly he feels for you like you felt for others. I am so sorry if this is inappropriate it was never intended to be so. The only part of your pain I can relate to is being in pain and agony alone daily without your true love.

Unrequited love happens, I know that I have fallen for a few people that things simply didn't work out. While I understand that love lost is not uncommon, there truly is one person that has left a deep mark on me. The crazy thing is that I never dated this man. It would be hard to label us as friends now, though we have many mutual friends.

We went to High School together, met through the drama department. He was classically charismatic, funny and smart. In the beginning we would only knock into each other in settings with friends around. Eventually we developed a strange relationship which rotated around drinking & having crazy nights of passion, though there was no sex- (unlike anything I have experienced since). To kiss him was to see into his soul. We did end up spending some nights alone, talking until the sun came up... then I went to college.

We kept in touch. He came and visited with friends and everything. Eventually (a few years later) I ended up moving to a town 40 minutes away from our hometown (much closer than my college). I saw him seldom at this point, things weren't happening between he and I... so I started dating another boy. When he found out he seemed to be very jealous. He bought me things (he'd never done that before) and tried to be around more (drove out to my place for random reasons). Though I had strong feelings for the boy I was dating I broke up with him because I felt that my 'soul mate' finally wanted to make his move and I was not being fair if I had feelings for two people.

He did make a move- he came to my apartment and we had one last night of pure passion. Just making out. Just talking about things... it was magic. When the sun came up the next day I could tell something was wrong. Two days later I went to a social gathering with mutual friends and there he was, holding hands with this other girl (a friend of both of ours). As we had never made any commitment to each other I had no reason to "be upset." I was though. It didn't matter that I lived far away... or that we didn't see each other enough... I felt like something was about to happen and now this?! My heart broke.

Long story short, the girl he was holding hands with became his fiancé a few years later. I still know him. It has been six years. I have been dating my boyfriend for five years. I am actually good friends with his fiancé. She is a nice girl, I like her. I don't want to and have no intention of ever trying to come between them, they are good people. I'm a good person... I have mostly pushed any feelings I have for this guy out of my mind. Still there are times where he will 'pet my hair' playfully when he walks by or he will say things that are mysterious. Example: at his engagement party I congratulated him and went in for a hug. While hugging he whispered into my ear "more than you'll ever know." -it's things like this when I swear I can feel a string tugging at my heart. Making my contact sends my heart racing. The butterflies. It hasn't gone away, it's just weird now. I can't really hold a conversation with him anymore. I can't talk to him without feeling like I'm going to flirt... or feel for him. I can't take that kind of torture and I find it very disrespectful to flirt with another woman's man, I will never be the other woman. The impossibility that we could ever be together has sunk in. It's a very strange situation.

It's not that I always want to be with this guy. I love my boyfriend, so much. It's when I see him. This guy left a mark on me. Call it the first cut being the deepest. Call it soul mates gone wrong. Whatever. It has been a real trial in my life.

*here is the kicker.* His fiancé has asked me to be in their wedding. The awkward heart ache continues... feeling fortunate that my boyfriend is such a wonderful man. I wouldn't trade him for the world, but I think it may be possible that I love them both. Or maybe the engaged man just seems interesting because it was unrequited? Whatever the case, life goes on. If there is an afterlife and we are some sort of soul mates then I will see him when I die. *I told him that, when we were drunk once.*

I think I can relate. I have acted similar although reverse in that I showed a girl I loved much attention and when she didn't respond but responded to anothers I withdrew. Nonetheless just how you describe him seems in essence similar to myself. I would say he wanted you more than anything but never had the guts to make it happen. If you still do it might be worth just seeing if he does to. There wouldn't be anything to lose the way you describe it and boys are terribly scared of putting all their feelings on the line.

To some of you who are scared to follow your heart :) As I read your stories , I felt all the broken hearts here and wanted to share this message to you in hope to bring peace in your souls . Let me be clear about something , what you felt being an " amazing , mind blowing , non sense , magical " connection is simply the result of a soul recognizing another soul . Are / Were you scared then ?

Let me be clear , a life without your soul connection is going to be a long , painful , lonely one .
Such connection goes way beyond the logic of the mind and trigger every belief system integrated in your brain . So here start the journey , a journey where the heart challenges the mind and all you ever though you knew ...It will even go further , it will open up all your deepest , darkest secrets and push you to some extreme edges until you deal once and for good with all that has holding you back . A Soul connection is a soul experience and not just a romantic " society based relationship " . Now , don't get me wrong , it is one of the rarest gift the universe has given to us and certainly can be the most magical relationship ever .

You might love and be attached to your comfort life , care deeply about the well being of your children but have you ever though about what you are teaching to your children by staying in a relationship based on " society obligations " ?
Do you really know what LOVE is ? And don' t you think you would want to pass this open , true vision of love to your children instead of seeing them later on repeating the same mistakes , suffering and attaching only fears to LOVE ?

Do you still believe you are simply a body with a soul hidden deep inside who is just here to appear occasionally in your dreams ? Be HONEST , be vulnerable , be authentic
It takes tremendous amount of strength , courage and true Love to start living life from the soul . Your soul is not concerned about your financial situation , your mortgage and all the worries the human brain creates daily or shall i say ego .

How many of you have spent days , weeks and months in regrets ?
If Life has taught my old soul something extremely valuable is that no matter who you married , how far is your soul connection , how many children you have and debts over your head , there is nothing that can break this connection .

Don't you feel that if you were simply following your heart and soul , allowing the universe to guide you and have pure faith that life will not automatically unfold in front of your eyes ??? All is energy and when one energy flows , the next one follow and the next one follow ..its a matter of balance , not positive , not negative . Once you can accept all aspects of life equally , the pieces of your life puzzle will fit one with another .

I have no mention my own life experience but if it brings a smile to a few of you , I will say that when my heart believed in loving someone so deeply ..no rejection , no other partner situation or distance could make me stop having this faith inside .
Along my journey , i had several soul connections and it was extremely challenging . However even if I did not end up married with any , I received the most precious gift ever . A reconnection with my soul connection !!!! a moment where 2 hearts meet and truly open to one another ( even happened with one person 10 years later ) .
Could we get another trial and be in relationship ? YES 100% Did we need to be in a relationship again now that our souls have found peace ? Not a must at all .

I can only say that the joy of reconnecting is one special moment . My soul only knew that more was waiting for me , so i kept listening to my soul and met another soul connection .
This one was beyond all I could ever think possible on Earth , not even any movie ( including city of angels or serendipity ) could come close to the scenario the universe has written for our souls .
It will take me ages to write the all adventure , one with one episode more magical than the other .

All I will say is his soul recognized mine immediately . For months and months our souls smiled to each other . When I first saw him from distance , something came to me and I heard : " this is it , this is my husband " . When we finally met in physical , the energy between us was almost unbearable . The moment he touched my hand , it felt as if thousand of memories of love came back to me . Doubts , fears and time did not exist . it was love at first sight , our souls just knew and we both said to each other " i feel like i know you forever " .
Next thing you know is that he was extremely happy to have met me and expressed it to me openly ...then for no reasons at all , he was gone . He erased me from all networks , did not respond to my emails and i felt like I was dying but faith never left me ....

We both had great career especially him . We reconnected so briefly , he could not even face me and justify his actions so this time he run away in front of my eyes .
More happened !!! He tried to pull me back but was extremely scared and then met someone else . Did he forgot about me ? No . I could prove it ( so you know that this is not my own thinking or wish , true tangible facts )

Since he got involved with this other girl , he lost his shine , became extremely arrogant
and started to only act with his head . It almost seem like his soul was gone .

No matter how the universe kept pushing us back together in the most " impossible scenario " ( to the point of being almost unreal ) . He rejected me heavily this time .
I nearly survived this time around . The universe was so not playing and when Destiny decide on something , trust me it could scare a " Rambo " boy lolll

Of course his lovely head took over and he end up getting married and having a kid . I end up alone the past 3 years since we met and that last episode completely broke my heart in pieces . You wonder how I found out he got married ? Well his soul came to tell me the day of his wedding ( we live in 2 different continents by the way ) ..I though first I was again losing my mind as i felt extreme sadness from his soul but few days later I found out that the day I felt this was really the day he got married . Same kind of story with the kid .

I lost most of my interest in my career and in life ..Now I m taking life slowly and I m doing all to heal myself .
Do i think this is over ? NO . Do I smile ? YES . What am i going to go ? Listen , have faith

Love x

im in the same situation. The love of my life recently got engaged and i felt like my heart shattered. people say times a healer believe me its not its been 6 years since i saw him. we had a song savage garden i knew i loved you the lyrics are beautiful. Sometimes that one love holds ur heart forever but u wont rest untill ur certain u done everything u can to reach out to her. true love comes once in a lifetime and u dont live forever so you have to make ur life the best u can and if it means putting ur heart on the line then so be it. What u got to lose? i hope everything turns out for u i really do. X

Thank you so much and I truly wish the same for you . As hard as it might look from the outside , the separation and challenges are in fact a blessing from the universe. It secretly tells us , please clean up this mess so both of your souls can shine in eternity . He run away , married someone else who strangely enough has so much in common wth me on the outside ..she is the reflection of his shadow , a young soul who has only interest for fame and fortune . However , we both needed this time apart to deal with our own pain . I know for a fact that he only married her after finding out she was pregnant . Now this extremely young woman might not be good news at all in the future and from what I feel might have ad several adventures behind his back . So whatever it is , this was brought to hs life to deal once and for good with the ego . The only thing we can be sure of in this lifetime is that the universe did nit bring you that far to let you down :)

The first time I walked in the classroom, I could feel him staring at me. I knew he liked me. I didn't at the time though. He would try to talk to me, but I was just not interested. I sound shallow, but at that time I did not find him physically appealing. As the semester continued, I found myself liking him more and more. He was kind, charismatic, intelligent, an athlete, people in the classroom appreciated him. And I was slowly falling for him. After the semester ended, I would think about him, and occasionally run into him on campus, my heart would skip a beat. Several years later I would still think about him, it seems that I felt that no other guy was like him. It has been about 6 years now and just recently found that he got engaged. I cried. didn't expect to react this way , I felt that my heart was breaking, I felt that it was a mistake, that he was only reserved for me.

I know that back after that semester, he still had an attraction towards me. I would find him staring at me on occasion on campus, but would not approach me. I felt that he got nervous talking to me (during the semester) although he was an outgoing person.

I do wish him the best, but I also wish I could tell him what I felt for him those years, and even now. I want closure. I feel that if he knows how I feel I will finally be relieved from this pain, even though I know I won't be with him. I do not want to ruin what he has now.

Life is such a journey.. It brings two people together in no time and we get separated in seconds. I loved my gal. I just loved with no expectations. Again back in my town religion is a big problem. Even today caste prevails and I being from this generation I could not do anything on that. I hate people with religion discriminations and my gal will not hurt their family.

A day will come, I will see her hold someone's hand which I always wished would be mine. Life has come to a standstill. Everything around seems slow. The pain I have gone through is such that I will never indulge in something called as "RELATIONSHIP" and it is better to stay single and love her from wherever I am. It hurts.

I experienced the same thing. When she married some else, my heart was bursting, I dare not sleep because I will think of her.
I tried not to talk to her but my heart miss her.
I have no control over my emotion but I knew I need to take serious control of myself.
Things that I do is to maintain a friend relationship by sending her best wishes messages, talk to my close friend about it, try to find some ugly thing in her appearance like big nose, big buttock etc.
Compare her with other beauty.
Another effective way I found is to go out with on a causal date with an attractive girl.
All this help me to recover.
I hope it will help you too, my friend.

It is said that before each of us was created, we were one big soul. Forty days before our conception, G‑d took our "big soul" in His hands and he split it into two pieces. I strongly believe that one of our purpose in life is finding the other half...

I had kind of the same experience than you... I fell in love when I was 18 to what I still believe after 12 years is my soul mate! She is now married but my love is so strong that I'm actually happy she is... she deserve happiness even if it's not with me! What make me sad is that we don't talk... why you ask!?! well it would be too long to explain but let say I was a selfish little boy and I acted like a foul.... I guess I was young and stupid but it's not an excuse! I tried many times to apologies but she didn't want to hear it... I haven't seen her in 12 years but I'm sure she would see me she would break down in tears! Truth be told it was a unique, electrical and timeless LOVE. Never felt the same with/for anyone else not even close to it! I'm confident she doesn't love him as much as she loved me. I can hear a little voice inside me that say it's your soul mate not his... I just need to see her once to know it for sure and if she doesn't break down in tears... Well there is still hope in finding my other half somewhere else!?!

I can see a lot of people in the same state that I am in right now.. But still going through all ur stories... I'll say you have all had good reasons to be seperate... What kills me is that I could have had her if I was vocal about it... There were misunderstandings and communication gaps between my parents and me.. me and her... And all it has created is a void, that I don't believe can ever be filled. She's getting married to someone else... Her parents chose him for her... She ain't happy, I am not happy, neither the paarents after seeing our long faces... But she's already engaged, and now the families say that nuthng shall/can be done... Last 7 years with her were the best of my life ever... But now everything seems to be flowing out of my hands .. And all destiny (rather my mistakes) have led to is for me to watch this all silently... And to be not able to change this... The pain is too much to handle... I don't know what to do... I don't know what she shall do... Just I hope we have enough strength to go through this...

I'm 33 years old and I've been married for 10 years, most of which I've been unhappy and completely miserable. We started dating in high school and we've been together every since. Earlier this year I met a man who turned out to be everything I wanted, needed and had been missing in my life. He's been very supportive of me and constantly pushing to make me a better person. I enjoy being with him and he enjoys being with me. We both fell on love and didn't see it coming. The only problem is...I'm married but currently separated from my husband. Because I haven't moved forward with my divorce, due to financial reasons, he's now engaged and this is killing me. The man that I've fallen on love with is now engaged to be married and I'm trying to get divorced. I don't know what to do. I've told him that I don't want him to get married. My heart can't take this much longer. I've cried every day since I found out. I can't let him do this. God knows that I truly love this man and I'm going to fight for him.

i have just lost the love of my life after waiting 30years to get together. when he married someone else 21years ago i was devastated that i rang him up to wish him all the bests but my heart was broken. one year later 1989 i got married and five months after i got married he rang me to say he made a mistake, he only loved me. so we both made a mistake but we carried on with our marriages. three years later he divorced and came looking for me, i too had temporary seperated and i went back to my husband. two chances now lost. over the next 7 years we kept in touch, always loved each other always told each other but never crossed the line ever. then he asked me after 7years to again leave my husband, although i adored him i had a life and children in school so i said no even though i just wanted to run to him. then he married quickly someone else. i had to go through the pain again of watching him marry someone else. now 2011 my marriage of now 22year was failing, his marriage of 7 years was failing and he again contacted me, saying he cannot move on without me, so i decided that finally after 30years of waiting the time was right. we met had coffee and decided to tell our failing marriages that it was over. his wife moved out but because of a business and financial circumstances and my children still at home i could not leave the marital home but continued our relationship travelling to wales every few days, but unfortunately still sharing the home with y husband. we absolutely fell in love, but after 19months of an intolerable situation of closing a business, selling my home the pressure got to much for him, i understand but i couldnt walk away from my children and move them to wales in the middle of their a levels. he lived alone as his children left school. the his ex wife started to ring me and abuse me and the whole situation has took its effect on us. as of now i called it off, as his pressure for me to move to wales was to much on me and my children and the abuse from his ex wife who still leaves in wales has made me so worried. so i have walked away devestated. he is too but there was alot of things he could have done to protect me from his ex wife and he didnt. my husband conducted the whole situation with dignity even meeting my lover, because i showed my husband respect for the 22years we were together, he believed i still loved him. i never did i loved my first love from age of 16 and i am now 45. i will never love anyone like him, we have not spoke now for 4 weeks it is for the best. today my business closed down and my daughter moved to university and my house sale is pending. to give up everything for nothing is heartbreaking, but he just couldnt wait any longer. to me if you wait 30years you can wait a few more week. so ihe is alone in his house, dont know if his ex wife is there, she said and did some awful things even though there marriage had failed not because of me they were in seperate rooms for two years before he contacted me. i think we had our chance and after all we went through over the years and how we were so faithfull until we were both honest to our failing marriages that it should not have failed but it has. i love him i will never stop, my heart breaks and my husband who i am nearly divorced from is devasted as he has to watch me cry over someone i love if only i could have loved him like that he said.

I'm in sort of a similar situation myself; only all this stemmed from an experience dating back in 2006. It wasn't until recently I found out she got married and has a baby now. As I look back then, I was simply young and naive and I thought I was in a decent world at the time. So I moved on, met a different girl until she broke up with me to be with another guy 2 weeks later. Sometimes, even with the best of intentions and all the right moves - you can only do what you can do. In the end, all you can do is your best and walk away. You can only do what you can do.. Because the unfortunate reality is all roads to hell are paved with best of intentions. But, you can choose how to deal with what's down this road. The whole point of life is to endure, to learn to deal with unimaginable emotions, to endure pain. That is the point of being human. Men are destined for bitterness in one way or another, upon realizing this, I made myself become stronger for it because I can channel all the physical pain inside because it cannot compare to the emotional scar that's there. It's a curse, but it's a valuable asset because you become stronger for it - because the truth is not always good enough, some people deserve more. So ask yourself, is your past worth more than the chance to brush off this unimaginable experience to begin anew? Live with regret for the rest of your life or.. live with new fresh start and worth deserving?

I'm in a similar situation. But in the opposite position. I'm 17 and got married about a month ago. Two years ago I loved a guy with everything I had in me. And he just went away then I met and married my husband. It's been a month into our married and the one I used to love came around again and I found that he loves me too. And to be honest I live him back. More than n e thing in the world. Idk how to handle this. I have tried to forget with everything in me. To just block out the whole world but I still feel pain and want for my first love. It hurts so bad sometimes. I just can't imagine what I'm supposed to do. Please help !!

After losing the love of my life to another at 22, I married a wonderful man when I was 25. I gave up on finding anyone else who could possibly be my soulmate and settled because I didn't want to be alone. Now, after 45 years of marriage to the wrong man and after finding my soulmate (whom I first met at 16), all I can advise you is never give up and don't settle.

Your story gives me hope. Nine years ago I was in the Military and stationed overseas when I met the most amazing guy ever! Hands down the most likeable person I have ever met, everyone loved him. I was also completely attracted to him but had horrible self esteem and new their was no way he felt the same. We became inseperable, we use to spend hours together doing nothing just hanging out. Our connection was amazing. A litle over a year after we met it was time for him to PCS. A few nights before he left I got stranded at his building and had no where to stay but his room. I was so nervous, this person i spent countless hours with and could talk to about anything had me so freaked out laying in his tiny twin bed in a completely platonic way that he asked me " do you breathe" I laughed and pretty soon the laughter turned to tears and I confessed all of my real feelings. He responded with what I thought could never happen he was completely in lovewith me. We kissed and laid in bed together all night but it never went further than that. We parted ways promising that one day we would end up in the same place at the same time and we would be together and we would keep in touch and maintain our friendship in the meantime. Then I got pregnant, by someone else. He wasn't angry just sad but very understanding it was not a deal breaker. We stayed in touch over the next few years, talking non stop for months then not at all for five or six months. He was accross the country from me, and we never could get it together enough to see each other. Then he dropped off the face of the earth. I didn't hear from him for over a year and started dating my childhood crush in the meantime. After about eight months my boyfriend and I got married. It wasnt the amazing connection I had with my lost love/best friend but how many people travel around the world and end up reconnecting with their childhood crush? It had to mean something and my daughter 3 at the time adored him. Life was good. Two years of marriage and another little girl later I get a random email from him. My heart immediately went to my throat. I got tears in my eyes and knew without a doubt that I had made a HUGE mistake. My marriage was decent my girls amazing but nothing compared to the connection between my lost love and I. For a long time we would email every few days and have casual conversation then one day out of the blue I got a message that was far more than casual telling me that he had made a mistake and that basically he regretted never making it happen between us.
Over the years we have joked about how our relationship was like a bad movie or a Nicholas Sparks novel and written pretend endings to it but it is now a complete mess!!!! My husband loves me, I love my family, I have a good life, but their is something missing that only he can give me. Eight years later I still get butterflies at the thought of him, every word, a funny memory of him puts a smile on my face instantly. If I get an email from him and my mom is in the room she will ask how he is doing because he can literally light up my face. We constantly talk about how amazing it would be to see each other and have even toyed with the idea of meeting up in a strange city one week every year and just being us until we can be together forever. But I will never go through with it. I am not willing to sacrifice my childrens happiness for my own so I am stuck for now. I try not to speak to him too frequently because not only is it torturesome but it is completely unfair to my always loyal husband but I will always hope that one day we can be together. I am even okay with it being at 90 in a nursing home. I firmly believe that my life will not be complete until he and I at least have a chance at a life together.