My Dad Is Getting Old, And I'm Sooo Afraid Of Him Dying.
Ever since I was little, I would have a sudden random thought of losing one of my parents. I guess i'm mostly terrified of losing my dad. I'm 18 and my dad is 78! i know its crazy, i always have been a bit embarrassed by it though I shouldn't be. My mom is in her fifties so I am less fearful of her death, also I admit I am a bit closer to my dad. My dad is in good health to my knowledge, but just the thought of his age tears me apart, i'm so afraid of him dying. I love him more than anything, if that happened, i don't think i could go on. I'm very emotional when it comes to loved ones and I've never lost someone close to me before... i really don't know how I'll react. I feel like no one I know can relate or loves him as much as me. I also feel bad cuz sometimes I don't treat him as special as he should be treated, I may not give him enough attention, at the time I want to be alone, but at the end of the day... I regret it :[ helpful advice anyonee??