Having Surgery Next Week. Terrified.

Next Friday I'm getting surgery on my nose and sinuses, with general anesthesia. This will be my 3rd general anesthesia experience and I am pretty terrified. I feel like I'm not going to wake up from the sedation. I feel like I am going to die on the table.

I trust my doctor and know that this surgery is the best option for me, but I can't stop thinking that I'm going to die.

I just wrote a letter to my husband and put it in our spare bedroom (where I will be recovering). It's for him to read if I do end up dying. I wrote about my wishes, my perspective on life, our relationship, directions for taking care of the house, passwords for emails/credit card/social websites. It was very sad and I was crying the whole time. I don't want him to be a widower. I'm not ready to die.

No one else knows about my surgery-- friends or family-- because I want it to be kept private. So basically, I don't have anyone to talk to about this besides my husband, who is away on business in another country right now.

Feeling pretty scared.




Season7 Season7
26-30, F
7 Responses Aug 12, 2010

I was told by all my Doctors
That I need Double Knee
Replacement....
My Appendix and Gallbladder
Removed....
An Anal Fissure Repair..

I am not looking foward to
Any of these Surgeries.

My Dentist says I have no more
Teeth because I grind my teeth.

I was very apprehensive about being put to sleep for my sinus surgery, but it was just as they told me. I was given an IV as I was being wheeled from pre-op. I asked the guy pushing the gurney a question and they next thing I know I wake up in post-op. No big deal. If I ever have it done again I will be OK.

Thank you for getting back to me:)! i am very glad to hear that everything worked out so well for you!! how are you feeling now? i don't know if i will be able to go through this! I hope everything works out the same for me as it did for you!

iam proude to hear your ok godbless you and your family!

I'm ok! It was very stressful the day of surgery but the anesthesia calmed me down... then I woke up and I was in recovery. Everything was fine.<br />
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:)

Season 7. U sound just like me! I have been thinking to do the same thing for my boyfriend and family! I am having nasal surgery sept. 7. I have read horror stories and I'm just certain I'll never see anyone again! That makes me so sad:(. I don't want to die! I want to live I'm 26, I'm sure you will be fine. I will pray for you! Can u let me know how your doing?

I DONOT KNOW IF YOU BELIEVE IN GOD BUT I DO AND I THINK WE SHOULD TRUST IN HIM THAT EVERYTHING WOULD COMEOUT GOOD WITH NO TROUBLES HAVE FAITH AND GO IN THERE POSITIVE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO GET OUT SAFE WRITE?<br />
SO BE POSITIVE TRUST UR INERSELF!<br />
PEACE AND LOVE MY FRIEND!