This Ranks High..
..among my worst fears. It's funny how I only came to realize it now. It's almost my primary source of motivation to do what I'm supposed to do. Now I'm thinking about my current problems and voila, this is a constant obstacle.
It's an absurd fear. "I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody." I'm a ******* people pleaser and I don't even like people. No, that's not really true. I'm just not a "people person". No wonder I feel like such a failure. No wonder I'm miserable. And to think of the people I think about disappointing! They don't even care!
...aand that's all for tonight. Sleep time. tbc.