I'm Afraid of Dying...period.

I just had a freaky experience where I took too many pills ( laxatives... I'm an Anorexic) and was out of two prescriptions all at the same time and felt like hell.  Felt like I just might die.  This is not the first time I have felt this way.  I almost died when I was 64 lbs and went into treatment and passed out at the intake interview. 

But anyway, this last "freaky experience" was so scary!  I felt like I was going to die and I'm only 30.  I'm not ready yet.  I want to live for my beautiful niece Julia. She just turned two years old two days ago and she is so precious to me.  I want to keep alive for my mom.  I think my mom would die if I died.  I'm just so scared for these people.  I don't want to leave them alone.  They don't deserve  to be alone.

Licorice Licorice
31-35, F
Jul 21, 2007