I Don't Want To Die Alone :(

I'm 20 years old and although it has taken me 20 years to figure this out I finally know, I will die alone. I was picked on a lot in primary school, only to have bright hopes for high school. Highschool resulted in the same hazing. Two years of University are almost done, I still have no friends, I have never touched a girl...... I will die alone.

Some people were made a little too different for the world to tolerate.

Mudd000 Mudd000
18-21, M
1 Response Feb 18, 2010

People can be so exclusionary and mean. I think if more people came from an appreciative mind set, those who are different wouldn't feel that way so much and would be more aware of their value and other people would be more aware of their value. I'm so sorry you had this experience. When I was 20, I felt the same way. I felt I could not fit in enough to be loved and that I was too different, too weird.<br />
Though I've had experience and have gotten closer to others in these past 5 years, I still wonder if I'm going to die alone.