I'll be 36 this week.  Every year for as long as I can remember, I've blown out the candles on my cake and wished for love.   In 36 years, I've only experienced love, real love with one man for a span of 4 years.  The aftermath is that 10 years after the crash and burn, I'm now a single mom who doesn't believe that love will ever come again.  The worst fear I have is that I will have lived my entire life and I will never meet the man who would have loved me enough to want me forever.  I've carried this fear for a long time.  I realized it one day when I was less than 10 years old and woke up from a nightmare in which I saw myself as a lonely and broken old woman.  My experiences are beginning to speak for themselves.  One short-lived love, followed by many temporary arrangements.  Nothing has ever panned out.  I've stopped trying. 

nurseK72 nurseK72
5 Responses Nov 9, 2008

If you stop trying then loneliness is guaranteed! So never give up hope.

but there ISN'T always someone out there for you, especially if you've had a difficult life... i've heard the "there's someone for everyone" again & again, but don't believe it's true.

Nurse, Don't give up. There is someone out there for you. I hope that soon you will find that one person that will make you forever happy. You just goyya hang in there. Good luck. If you think it would help to talk just let me know.

I'm 38 and i'm pretty much in the same situation as you.Minus the single mom part.

Dont give up! <br />
"We accept the love we think we deserve" -postsecret<br />
If you believe you are worthy of the love you want then it will happen - its out there - 6billion people on the planet it just doesnt make sense that there isnt someone for you :)