I've Waited A Long Time

because I have a fear.

a fear that I will fail them.

a fear that i won't be able to handle the responsibilities.

a fear that i will mess them up.

a fear that i wont' be able tolove them enough.

a fear that i'll injure them.

a fear that my care won't be enough for them.

a fear that i will fail them.

so many fears.

but the most thing i fear is that I won't know how to parent them or give them a childhood they truly deserve!
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2 Responses Aug 5, 2010

I am scared to death to have children too. I'm still very young but know that I want kids, I'm just afraid of the pain, responsibilty, and whether or not I'll be able to provide them with what they really need. My mom wasn't the greatest example on being a parent, and I am an only child so I didn't have any siblings to lean on. I just don't want my children to have a bad childhood or life. A child shouldn't have to be brought in the world having to struggle. I just don't know...

I think people make a bigger deal out of it than it is. Yes, it is sometimes difficult and challenging, but I always come back to two simple rules: 1) Children need love and affection, 2) Children need consistent structure. That's it.<br />
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#1 is easy when they're small. The first time you see that helpless being it just makes you fall apart the love is so strong. Of course it does get more challenging as they get older! lol.<br />
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#2 just takes practice and determination so you stick with it.<br />
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And yeah, if you weren't a little scared of it you shouldn't have children.